I pass through the hospital doors knowing it'll be the last time ...the last time I'll feel this way ...the last time I'm
seeing Miles ..the guy I love the most ..even more than myself ..on the elevator ,I press the number three ,watching it illuminate for the last time .
The door opens wide to the third floor and I smile at the nurse who's on duty ,watching her expression as she pities me for the last time .I pass the supply room and I continue down the hallway and keep my gaze forward and my heart brave as I tap lightly on his door ,waiting to hear him invite me in for the last time ..
Come in " his voice somehow still filled with hope and I have no idea how
He's on his bed ,lying on his back.when he sees me ..he comforts me with his warm smile and lifts the blanket ,inviting me to join him .I wrap my hands around his chest and I hug him tight ..holding my tears and trying to breathe slowly ..
"Hey ...." He gasped "you're gonna be fine I swear ...you'll do well without me ..honey don't cry Lils ." He used to call me lils before we even dated ...him saying that made me cry my eyes out .
"Miles ..I can't ..I can't promise you not to hurt myself anymore ..I can't do it...I'm sorry .."
"You have to ...you have to live for me ..for us ...please ? " I sobbed while he said the word please ...and I hugged him even harder ..I couldn't stop crying ,I didn't know how to react or what to do ..today is the last day I'm seeing him ...he was the only reason I was alive until now ...
