I usually hate goodbyes ...i don't know how to express how I feel ..as a person who've been hurting theirselves for years ..I've never been expecting someone really close to leave me in such a terrible way ..I've never felt so alone ..I've never been this lost ...cuz Miles wasn't just "Lilly's boyfriend " as they called him at school ...He was also my brother , my dad and my bestfriend and I lost him ...I've never had any care or attention from my family ...so I kept looking for it with any guy who'd give me any little attention or care ...I've fell in love with every guy I've dated ..even though my love life was a mess for a couple of years .I was really happy with him ,though .he made me smile even if I had a hardtime ..you'd never imagine how much I'll miss Miles ..he's so precious to me ..now he's gone..
I kissed him hard on his forehead he looked at me with tears in his eyes ."Lilly ..."he paused " you know I'm always here right ? " I nodded even though I wasn't convinced with what he just said ..they're gonna put down all the medical devices and once they do that ...he's gone ..just like everybody else .My problem is that I get attached so easily ..and I hate it ..it only gets me hurt and gets me anxious .
"Lily ..promise me ..promise me you're not gonna hurt yourself again ."I shook my head as a refuse to what he just said ." I can't Miles ..I can't .I'm really trying my hardest to live ..but without you ..I have no reason to live !!!" I gasped .
He looked furious ..because he's gonna leave me hurt myself again ...I hugged him tight and then cried my eyes out .
"Mrs Lilly ..it's time .." I heard that nurse calling me and she looked at me with pity ..I pitied myself too ...it felt terrible as fuck .
