I try not to notice these things,but it's hard .I'm aware of his increased weakness ,his slightly paler skin ,the frailty in his voice .Everyday during my allotted tie with him ,I can see that he's slipping further away from me and there's nothing I can do about it .
I sighed as I left the room where they had to put away all the canules and the medical devices connected to his body ..still having some kinda faith in god that he'll still be alive ...I stood at the door with tears in both our eyes and I waved goodbye to him .knowing that this will be the last time I'm seeing my first love , the only person who made me feel worth it ,the only one who made me feel loved after my father passed away ..I don't know if I can handle it ..I don't know if I can move on in my life ...I can do nothing about Miles death ..it's fate you know ...
I headed home later and I was hoping I'm not gonna have another argument or any other panic attacks because of my mom ."WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU ?!!" I looked at her with no response and I took my jacket off and headed to my room .
"YOU'RE A BITCH !ANSWER YOUR MOM WHEN SHE'S CALLING YOU ,YOU LITTLE PSYCHO !!!" she kept yelling .
"Mom...can you please stop?im tired .let's argue later okay ?" I quietly said
" ARGUE WHAT ?!!"
"MOM..PLEASE !! A FRIEND OF MINE JUST DIED ...I CANT HANDLE ANYMORE SHIT ...so please stop !!or else I'm leaving this house !"
"HAHAHHA !Leave ??!where the hell will you go ? Oh right to that guy's house ?!"I slammed the door really hard in her face and she opened the door again .With all the strength and power she's ever had ..she slapped me on my face that it made me bleed ..That was the end of it !
