Drifted Time

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Savannah's Pov

At that moment, I felt my heart drop down to my ass. All color draining from my face. I couldn't move or speak, all I could do was cry. I felt my body fall to the floor but I couldn't stop it, I felt paralyzed. I knew dad was talking but his voice was muffled, the only thing I heard were my own thoughts.

Last time I talked to Mom, we argued and I said some really mean things to her. I never expected this to happen, maybe if I had called like I wanted to this would have never happened. "Savannah, let's go. We're going to meet your aunts at the hospital." I heard Dad's voice slowly come back into focus, I could feel him carry me. I couldn't utter a word.

Everything I needed was already with me. Dad and myself, I know he's hurting at the moment too. I want to ask him if he's okay but I can't open my mouth. My mouth was moving but my mind was blank.

I saw my father rushing around the house, I don't know what he was trying to do but he did it. All with me just sitting there. Stuck in my own head. I watched as he carried a huge bag with clothes, maybe? Inside and walked towards me, he threw me on his back and headed to the car.

"Savannah, I need you to listen to me. Focus. I need you to be with me." Dad spoke softly, dropping me across the back seats of his black Audi. We pulled off from the gated community and headed to the hospital, I'm guessing. We could be going to pick up my aunts but I don't know, I honestly can't even think about what I'm doing myself. Let alone what my dad and aunts are doing.

Maybe if I had never said anything to her at all she would have never left. Maybe if i didn't upset her so much she would have never gotten into the accident.

I don't even know what happened but I can't help but blame myself that my mom is hurt. She's hurt because I hurt her. I don't know if dad knows about what happened but I hope he doesn't, I hope MK and Ash don't know either. I know they will give me an ear load that I don't want or need to hear.

I felt my breath pick up but I couldn't control it.

"Sav, I need you to calm down." Dads voice came in and out of focus. I closed my eyes, trying to focus.

I started shaking, there's not much I can do because we're in the car. I heard the tires squeal and dad pull over to the side of the road.

"Hey, daddy needs you. You gotta be strong for me and your mom." He pleaded, sliding into the back seat.

He pulled my head into his chest, I heard his heartbeat but everything was still fuzzy.

After a while Dad and I climbed into the front seat and we rushed to the hospital.

We ran inside and into the ER and saw a receptionist. "Hi, We're looking for Elizabeth Olsen." Dad quickly told the woman, she didn't look very focused on what dad was telling her. I think he noticed that too.

He banged on the counter, "Do you hear me? I am looking for Elizabeth Olsen." He yelled, earning the eyes of other people. They looked at us and started whispering.

The receptionist looked terrified, "Sorry. Room 219, sir." She pointed towards the hallway. We didn't say anything but sprinted toward the way she was pointing.

'211'

'212'

'213'

'214'

Why is it taking so long? We finally made it to room 219 and were met with my aunts and grandmother standing outside the room. Their eyes were bloodshot red with tears running down their faces.

I was debating whether or not to go in and I think Grandma J knew that, she nudged me and nodded. I was walking in but before I closed the door I heard my aunts sob into my father as he hugged the both of them.

She looks so fragile.

I couldn't help but let my tears fall as I walked to the chair next to her bed. I grabbed her hand and couldn't help but cry, this is all my fault.

She would've never been here if it wasn't for me.

"I'm so sorry Mommy. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was hurting and hurt you in the process. I'm so sorry." I cried, holding her hand. I don't know why but I thought she would respond, but the only response I received was the heart monitor beeping.

I hate hospitals. I heard the door open to reveal Aunt Ash. She silently sat down next to me, the room was silent for a while except for the beeping of the heart monitor.

"Y'know it isn't your fault, right?" She asked, I shook my head. I know she was trying to make me feel better but it doesn't do anything but make me feel worse, knowing she left the house upset because of what I said to her.

"We all know it is. You know what happened, everything I said hurt her and now she's here. In the hospital, fighting for her life." I whispered to her, I don't know what else to think. It's all so overwhelming. "If she was awake right now she would want you to know that it's not your fault. You both did some hurtful things." She told me, staring into my eyes.

I was looking in her eyes for any doubts or lies but I couldn't find any, all I could see was how sincere she was. She was actually telling me what she felt about the situation.

"She's hurting though, Ash. She's been more of a mom to me than my own mother. No scratch that, she is my mom and I hurt her in one of the worst ways possible. There's no way for me to fix this." I explained to her, hiding my face in my hands. She took my hands off of my face and smiled shortly at me.

"There's always a good in all the bad, Sav." She smiled at me then walked out the room. Now it was just mom and I.

I sat in the chair next to her, holding her hand with my right and scrolling on my phone with me left. There's not much for me to do being that it's a hospital room but I was comfortable the way I was. I don't know how long I was here for.

"Well hello, my little girl." Dad greeted me as he walked into the room. Here we go again, another talk with one of the adults in my life. I wanted to roll my eyes, he was trying to be soft with me and I hate it. Where's MK? I know she would tell me what I want to hear.

"Sav, maybe it's time to go. The doctors said she was already supposed to wake up. We can always come back tomorrow." Dad told me softly, I don't want to go. I can't leave her, not when she's hurting. She would never leave my side if the roles were reversed. "No dad, I can't leave her." I told him, he didn't say anything for a while but once again tried to get me to leave.

"Please, we will come back first thing tomorrow morning." He pleaded, he sounds so tired. I gave in. "Fine." I said, dad started walking towards the door. "I'm sorry Mommy. I didn't mean to hurt you." I whispered in her ear and kissed her forehead. I turned my back and walked toward the door.

"Wait."