My Kidnapper (18+)

8.

Cody's POV:

I cannot believe how much I missed a Cheese burger with fries on the side. My diet has always been shit anyway. I would rather die at 50 eating whatever I want than dieting and limiting myself of the only thing I enjoy.

As I was enjoying my meal a girl approached me. At first I was hesitant but a part of me didn't wanna push people away as I once did. Atleast I could talk to her and maybe find out what she wanted. I'm not sure what or how it happened but that was how I found myself kissing her in the back of a diner like a horny teenager. I usually am not the type to be this impulsive. I'm also not like I have to sleep with someone I date or something, but I would atleast prefer to know her. There's a gnawing feeling inside my stomach as I kissed her harder.

I guess in the back of my mind I knew why I'm behaving out of character. Turns out  Alex took something from me along with my sanity. I couldn't get hard. I tried every day and every porn collection I own but nothing happened. But yesterday I had a dirty dream of Alex and woke up with a really painful erection.

It was so overwhelming. But ... I'm not gay. I'm not homophobic. I just knew I wasn't gay. Literally no one has ever had that kind of effect on me. Even when I had sex in the past I was never excited that much. 

It's not that often that I get aroused but I had to know. Maybe he turned me gay. The thought made me shuddered to which the girl mistaken as arousal and tried to grab me through my clothes only to find it limp. Sarah's disappointment was clear but she started to rub me through my pants but it did not move. I was so worried and tried not to overthink. Maybe it's because I've been through so much just a week before and stressed. It might have been that. I looked at Sarah's face which looked disappointed.  She looked up at me with kind eyes and asked

"Are you okay? You don't wanna do it anymore?"

"I'm sorry.  I've been working a lot. The stress has been catching up on me" I said sighing while raking my fingers through my hair in frustration.

"Oh" she said sadly and took her hands away from me.

I feel bad. I have so much to think about and maybe this was a bad idea. My life always had a way to kick me in the nuts. But I refused to let my dick ruin this for me.

"But that doesn't mean I can't get you off" I whispered as I traced my fingers on her thigh.

I used my fingers to pleasure her. She writhed and after a few minutes reached her high. She gave me her number and asked me to call her and left. As I just stood there contemplating what to do.

One thing is for sure. I am still attracted to women but I still don't know why my dick did not move. It was concerning because I remember the way I got hard looking at the bathtub just by remembering but somehow I just couldn't get it up.

Fuck. That was kinda embarassing. I should not be involved with someone till I get better. Maybe I should give it time.

I sighed and got out of there to reach my next workplace.

After working for what felt like a lifetime I managed to buy some food for myself and a can of tuna for Luna, the stray cat I used to feed. I moved the fuck away from that house the first thing and forgot about her. The owner of the new place didn't mind me having pets. I was searching for Luna for a week.

I named her Luna because it rhymes with Tuna. Her favourite food. I know it's lame but I don't care. I looked for her for a while and started walking home.

Maybe she found someone who took her home. I couldn't bring myself to be happy about it even though she deserves a loving home.

The night air was chilly as I pulled  my jacket close. I guess the winter is near. I used up half of my savings for the new place and the other half of it for the college. Even though I'm exhausted I have to work if I wanna feed myself and Luna.