Bad Guy - ENG | YOONMIN

Chapter 7

"27/09/2015

Today is a very sad day... I spent the day at my friend Namjoon's mother's wake... and in his eyes I could only see the extent of his regret over the latest graffiti incident... he kept lamenting that he wished he had been a better son and it made me think about myself....

What does it mean to be a better son?

Even the police saw the graffiti as just a silly boys' prank, even though Tae was also harshly punished for it. He didn't tell us anything, but the marks on his body made it clear that he had been beaten...

But I didn't want Namjoon to feel bad because he was just having fun and I understand that his feelings were heavy and any reason he gave his mother a headache was a huge reason..."

As usual, Jimin was writing late at night and he was writing about feelings he didn't know... Jimin didn't understand the harm that a disobedient son did to a father and mother...

He was blinded and in love with the pleasures and irresponsibility that youth can bring...

"We got together after the wake and I tried to soothe Namjoon in the way I thought would make him less worried, but I don't think I said the right words...

Jin Hyung scolded me for what I said..."

The boys stayed together after the wake. Namjoon didn't want to be alone...

They were all sad, but just being together was a great comfort...

But even so, Jimin didn't want Nam to continue blaming himself, so he sat down next to him...

JM - Namjoon Hyung... don't feel so bad... you were just having fun... don't blame yourself... you're still just a kid...

Suddenly Jin interrupts him...

JN - Stop it, Jimin-ah! Namjoon is no longer a boy! He has to take responsibility for his siblings now! By himself ... and if we hadn't been wandering around, he would have helped his mother more at home! She was ill and we knew it! We should all feel guilty!

Namjoon lowers his head and starts crying again and everyone is silent around him...

Then Jin continues talking...

JN - Look at us! Running around, making a mess... getting drunk! Just going to parties day after day!

Suddenly he looks at Jungkook...

JN - Jungkook is the youngest among us... Jimin, you have a brother his age, don't you?

JM - Yes...

JN - Would you let your brother drink and do everything we do? Is that the example you'd set for him?

Jimin looked at him a little startled, but the answer was obvious...

JM - No...

JN - Think of everything your parents must think about this... and if it is fair to keep doing this to JK?

Nobody said anything... they just listened...

JN - And look at Hoseok!!! He mustn't even be drinking... if we love him we should help him get better!

Jin was the oldest and was beginning to see the importance of having responsibility in his life...

He takes a deep breath and goes over to Namjoon and hugs him...

JN - Sorry, my friend... I'm leaving...

NJ - I think we'd all better go home... or I don't know... wherever you want to go...