Bad Guy - ENG | YOONMIN

Chapter 6

Jimin wakes up in the morning and realizes that Suga is no longer beside him in bed...

He hugs the pillow Suga was lying on and takes a deep breath, smelling his perfume...

Suddenly Jimin looks over at his desk and realizes that his notebook has been left open where he was writing...

JM - Oh, shit!

Jimin quickly gets out of bed and sees that the notebook is still on the same page as he left it, but that doesn't mean that Suga hasn't seen it...

JM - Did he read it?

Jimin snorts, closes the notebook and throws it into the drawer...

He sits back in his chair and looks at the clock and it's still too early for Jimin to go to school, so he takes the notebook out of the drawer again and starts flipping through the pages he's already written and smiles as he passes the pages where he's pasted some photos...

Suga had such an innocent smile next to the boys... it was almost unbelievable that he was leading a life as a henchman for a mobster...

Jimin goes back to the last page he wrote and starts writing again...

"20/07/2015

Now I know everything Suga Hyung does... it seems he has no secrets anymore... he showed up in the middle of the night all bruised up tonight and told me what he really does...

Suga collects debts for his boss Yu Bi, if "beating" can be called "collecting" in this case...

I'm still a little overwhelmed by the truth... Suga Hyung knows how to be loving, patient, romantic and his touches are so light and subtle that it's hard to believe he can do this kind of job...

On the other hand, I'm happy that he trusted me to look after him... and I did what I had to do...

Suga didn't miss a chance to tell me that he loves me and wants to stay with me even though I've only treated him like a friend...

Then he slept cuddled up next to me as if he felt safe with me at last...

It was a strange night... maybe if I had the power to go back in time I would have let him kiss me under the shower as he wanted... the night would certainly have ended differently...

But I don't regret not giving in so much, because as you'd expect he left without even saying goodbye... when I woke up he was no longer here..."

(...)

"05/09/2015

I've been gone for a long time... I know...

My mom's been so mad at me lately... She wants me to improve my grades at school, so I'm trying... I really want her to stop saying she's going to ground me all the time...

She and I aren't getting on very well, we've been fighting constantly for the past month..."

Jimin thinks about tearing up the page and starting to write again, but gives up and continues...

But picking up where I left off the last time I wrote, after Suga left my house that night... he disappeared! He vanished for over two weeks...

Maybe he wanted to wait for his black eye to disappear to avoid questions... and I can understand that... I sent him messages and when Suga replied, he just said he was fine... no long conversations or flirting as usual...

I was afraid he'd given up on me for a moment... but that would be my fault, I was trying to push him away from me, myself... or if he read my notebook that last night he was here... he probably already knows that I was playing hard to get...