SUICIDAL

SUICIDAL II

It has been exactly two days since Ive been in this bloody hospital, the doctor said to stay for a few days to monitor my health progress and carry out checkups, it was surprising to see how many health issues I had, well I cant say it was expected though since I havent paid attention to my health or body over the years.

Sergeant Austine the officer in charge of my case had sent one of his officers to submit my phone to me and I contacted my lawyer Xavier McClure, funny how Ive never spoken to him before now, well except for legal stuff regarding my artistry and stuff but never for a crime and he always did the talking, while I did the listening and signing, Im sure he thinks Im a mute thats why he was so surprised when I called him yesterday and requested he comes to the hospital.

It was almost two in the afternoon and the meeting with Xaviers scheduled for three in the afternoon, well Ive got about an hour of solitude and peace for myself then. The voices in my head have been awfully quiet today and I havent had any panic attacks which Im grateful for, but my mind keeps on wandering to the woman whose murder Im being accused of, my curiosity on her case was getting the best of me, my hands were itching for me to write about it and share her story to the world, the case was pathetic but also very intriguing. I spent the next hour thinking about Cassys case, I know Ive heard that name somewhere before but I couldnt just place my finger on it, who was she? Where was she from? And why was she killed so pathetically? I almost feel bad for her, getting killed in an ally must have sucked, at least it would have been better if she was killed in a more decent place, right?

I was so deep in thought that I didnt notice the man walking into my room and sitting on the chair the sergeant placed close to my bed the previous day.

Good afternoon, Ms K! the stranger spoke a little loudly bringing me out of my spiralling thoughts.

I turned to face the intruder and it was just Xavier, I guess it was time for our meeting then, I've got to admit Xaviers a fine-looking man with his dark suit and expensive perfume, well his legal fees arent cheap so Im not surprised, his aura does scream wealth after all, plus I learnt his fathers a wealthy billionaire, its a wonder why hes still not married yet.

Good afternoon, Mr. X he chuckled as he relaxed himself on the chair.

Touche. I didnt know you had a voice he said with amusement.

Well now you know so lets cut to the chase, I said as I sat down on the bed facing him, my body felt a little weak but it wasnt something I wasnt used to.

Ok Ms. K, so tell me whats the issue? he requested getting all serious, he sat up straight waiting patiently for me to offload the issue. Now this is the Xavier I know, always serious when it comes to business, Im not going to lie its kind of sexy.

I relayed all I knew about the case to him and he looked a little surprised, he asked me some questions to which I answered truthfully, missing no details, he listened attentively and wrote down everything I said, and we talked about some more stuff before he requested to speak with the officer in charge, one of the officers guiding the door to my room called the sergeant on phone and within the next fifteen minutes, the sergeant had arrived.

You requested to see me Mr..? the sergeant inquired

Xavier, Xavier McClure Xavier informed and stretched out his hand for a handshake.

Im Sergeant Austine the sergeant informed and shook Xaviers hand.

After exchanging formalities, they both sat down opposite me and we all discoursed the matter on ground, Xavier had managed to get me out of police custody on bail until all investigations were complete, plus Austine had agreed to keep the media out of it until they had solid evidence to pin the murder on me, but Id still have to give them a statement and all that crap. They had a few more professional discussions before they both shook hands and parted ways, with the sergeant exiting the room first.

Dont worry Ms. K, Ive got everything under control, just dont do anything suspicious and reckless he instructed and I just replied with an ok and we both bid our goodbyes.

It wasnt even up to a minute after Xavier left and the nurses came to drown me in medications, after feeding me that rubbish they call food, uh I cant wait to get out of this hell hole and go back to living my life, not like its any fun either but anywhere is better than here. After taking my medications I drifted into my thoughts again and eventually submitted to sleep.

Finally, Ive been discharged from this bloody hospital, Xavier came by and volunteered to take me home which I thanked him for. The ride from the hospital to my house was roughly twenty minutes, minutes spent looking outside the window and watching life pass by swiftly, I rarely leave my house but when I do, I appreciate life and nature as a whole, the scenerys just so beautiful, it brought peace to my heart and soul, making me see life in a new sense but then reality comes knocking and not all that glitters is gold, even roses have their thongs and so does life, but that doesnt mean I wasnt going to enjoy this few minutes of freedom.

I felt a tap on my shoulder making me realize Xavier had successfully brought me home in one piece, I thanked him once again before exiting the car and getting into my house with the keys provided by one of the officers working under Austine, they changed my broken door numb.

Walking into my home after three days away from it felt like a warm hug, the scent of my cologne filled the air and I inhaled it greedily. I walked into my room and saw it just the way it was when I left it, I jumped into my bed and snuggled into the soft mattress, I stayed like that for a few minutes before taking my mask off and placing it in the laundry basket, then proceeding to the bathroom to go freshen up, I smelt like hospital disinfectants and I hated it.

I soaked myself in the bathtub filled with warm bubbly water and a rose-scented bath bomb, I felt my muscles relaxing, I felt at peace with myself, and my mind started playing all the events of the last three days and before my brain would start malfunctioning again and cause an attack, I gently closed my eyes and dipped myself completely into the tub, my head was completely underwater, I stayed like that for about five minutes before coming back to the surface and washing my body, I refuse to let my demons ruin my day, at least not today, maybe tomorrow. After washing my body with soap, I got out of the tub, drained it and proceeded to the shower, rinsing away all the ladders from my skin and letting the hot water wash away all my troubles.

I got out of the bathroom after about fifteen minutes, towelled myself dry, rubbed some lotion and ointment on my hair, then walked naked to the kitchen to go grab a bottle of wine and some Doritos, before heading back to my room, sitting on my work chair, facing my computer, turning it on and opening the book I had been working on, after completing it, I turned the laptop off and opened the wine bottle and the Dorito pack, then I took a huge gulp of wine straight off the bottle and began snacking on the Doritos, aint nothing better than this. I scrolled through my phone while I snack and after my little snack and wine were finished, I turned my phone off and jumped on my bed, being a little tipsy I passed out on the spot. Damn, its been a rough week and it hasnt even started yet.