Sa bawat hakbang na tinatahak ko sa eskwelahang aking pinapasukan, makikita ang mga ngiti at halakhak ng mga estudyante na puro saya ang nararamdaman.
Is there any reason to be happy in this world full of suffering? Or am I just unlucky to be born with this kind of life. A life full of misery.
I sighed and continued walking to my room when someone from behind suddenly bumps me.
"What the-"
"I am so sorry!", the person shouted and ran away. I did not get a glimpse of the persons face nor I clearly heard the persons voice. Pano ba naman ang ingay ingay sa paligid.
I just continued walking and finally came infront of my classroom. I entered and was greeted with looks that I have been long accustomed with. The look of judgement, the look of pity, the look of sadness.
I hate it. I hate it here. I hate them, all of them. They are just a bunch of liars.
I stormed out of my room and ran far away from them. The memories from the past came rushing through my head as if it had happened yesterday.
I arrived at the abandoned rooftop of our school. I sat down and felt the air in my face. Why did it have to be me? Why did I have to live a life like this?
I was in deep thoughts when I suddenly heard someone coming up. I looked at the stairs and saw a girl who's almost my age. She was shocked at seeing me and came running towards me.
"Kuya wag mong gawin yan bata kapa!", she shouted and pulled me.
"Wha-what - wait!", I screamed after she pulled me. Pano ba naman nahulog kaming dalawa sa sahig ng rooftop dahil sa pag hila niya.
"What were you thinking? What if you fell and died?", I scolded her and she looked at me with an bewildered face.
"Ah so mali ko pa talaga? Eh ikaw nga tong magpapakamatay eh tapos kasalanan ko pa.", saad naman nito. Ako? Magpapakamatay? Is this girl high or something?
"I wasn't going to commit suicide, I was only thinking of doing it.", I said and looked out of nowhere.
"That's still the same thing no! Tsaka, why would a guy like you try to commit suicide. The guys I know are finding love. On the other hand you are trying to end your precious lif-".
"There's nothing precious with my life.", I cut her off. She's starting to get annoying.
"Hoy hindi totoo yan, God made us equally so all of us are precious!", she said.
"I don't believe in such things."
"Why?"
"Because if he's real. Why did he left me alone?".
There was silence in the rooftop. I quickly packed my things and was ready to go when she suddenly broke the silence.
"Don't act like you have all the pain in this world.", she said that made me stop.
"Maybe I do. That's why I hate this life."
After what happened in the rooftop, I never went back there because I lost the peace I had whenever I am there.
I would also always see her in school, what's worst is that her room is right beside mine. She would always say hi or smile at me but I just ignore her, she's not worth my time.
I am at the canteen and I am sitting here alone, as always. She suddenly sat on the other side like it was nothing and ate her food.
I looked at her eating happily. She seems like a nice person. A happy-go-lucky girl. I envy her, I wish I was like that.
