ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ, ᴀᴛ ᴅᴀᴡɴ |Nanami Kento X Reader|

23 - Oasis of pain

You did not dare make any movement, afraid any sudden shift in your behavior would unleash the fury seeping through Nanami's careful expression. His eyes lifted slowly, following the patterns on the blanket on your legs, until they reached your hands and you swore there was a slight tremor at one corner of his lips as you flexed your fingers against the soft fabric.

You bit your lower lip, wishing you could muster the dignity not to say anything, wishing guilt would temper your angry thoughts. But time had done its work on you and one singular thought had been weighting on your mind ever since you had woken up here.

Nanami was quicker though. "Your friend was taken with Suguru." He said, his voice cold and detached. "I believe you could give me some information. Since you're involved with them."

You narrowed your eyes and felt your heartbeat accelerate. Despite knowing he wasn't here for you, hearing him say it that way felt like a stab in the gut.

"I used to." You reminded him, your voice not as mesured as you wished it to be. "That was years ago."

"It can't have changed that much, if I—"

"You think I haven't thought about it ?" You interrupted, bitterness coating your voice and you hated how awful you sounded. Just like the monster he imagined you to be. "You think I have not turned in my head every piece of information I can recall about that place ? That I haven't thought about going there to take back my family ? It's been YEARS, Nanami !"

As if he had been internally seething for hours, his fury begging to storm out, the blond yokai let out an annoyed scoff, his chest puffing as he waved a dismissive hand toward you. "I don't need to know much about what you've been doing there since you left. I can see enough." His eyes narrowed as he glared at you, his eyes darker than before.

You noticed his face had grown leaner, the mask of his rage not enough to hide the dark circles under his eyes. You had spent days rolling in the guilt and regrets you felt, you had thought you would be appalled to see him, and yet, you could not stop the fury growing inside.

"And what do you see ?" You seethed, your nails bruising your palms as you tightened your hands into fist meeting his dark stare, sticking your chin up.

Nanami looked around him before his face crumpled in some sort of disgust. "You sleep in his bed, wear his clothes." He replied, his mouth a flat line. "Do I need to say more ?"

You shot him a look of disbelief, pain and anger raging through you. "That's what angering you ? You think I'm fucking him ? I almost died leaving from Mekai," you spat at him, throat aching from holding back the scream that begged to come out. "had to see my only family get taken away from me, had a fucking bomb almost burn me to death and THIS is what you're thinking about ?"

You pushed on your legs, managing to stand up without embarrassing yourself and you grabbed the kimono around you, tightening it. "May I remind you that you're the one who banished me, threatened to kill me ?" You seethed, and his eyes lit with fury. "You're such a hypocrite. What are you waiting for huh ?"

"You think this is easy for me ?" He suddenly advanced toward you, stopping to point an accusing finger at you. "You think I enjoy being here ? Having to ask you for help when you betrayed me and endangered everything I care about, including yourself ?" He thundered. "I'd want nothing more than to hate you, trust me I would. I wish I could look at you and only believe you a liar and see the monster I painted you as in my memories every time my thoughts traveled to you."

He paused, his breath ragged and you opened your mouth, to scoff, to laugh, to reply something mean and unfair, tell him you did not fucking care about what he thought about you.