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I watched Fantasia as she fell asleep against me, finally getting the rest that I knew she had been needing.
Tracing over her features lightly, my mind began to roam in every direction possible. I wanted to comfort her, wipe her tears, make her laugh or smile, simply love her.
I had for a while now but repressed the feelings deep inside of me out of respect for her marriage. A marriage the other participant had absolutely no respect for. Cheating is one thing, but who you cheat with unlocks new levels of pain no one imagined.
My index finger began gliding over her cheeks, over her eyebrows, down the bridge of her nose until it hit her cupid's bow on her lip. My other hand gently caressing the back of her head, playing in those short curls she had sported for years on end, just living in the moment.
Her warm vanilla perfume filling my nostrils as I laid my head on top of hers. My eyes closed slowly and soon sleep overcame me as we held onto each other as if the other was going to disappear as we slept.
Hours later I woke up, still holding Fantasia close in my arms as she began stirring awake as well. Her face held a slight pout as she opened her eyes and looked around the room briefly.
She rubbed her eyes lightly before looking up at me and giving me a weak smile.
"Feeling better?" I asked getting a weak nod in response.
"Yea.. What time is it?" She asked slightly stretching but never moving from my embrace.
"Like four I think." I said as I reached back and grabbed my phone. I checked the time seeing it was exactly four pm before showing her the time displayed on my phone.
"What time we going to dinner?" She asked settling back into my chest. I smiled softly while rubbing her back, these are the moments I lived for.
"Whenever we feel like it. We can just stay in and order something too if you want, I know you probably don't want to be social tonight." I said making her hum lightly in agreement.
"Pizza?" She asked quietly, sleep seeming to consume her again as she laid against me.
"Sounds like a plan. You still tired?" I asked making her nod.
"Let me go to the bathroom real quick before you go back to sleep." I said making her groan lowly. She pulled away from me with a frown causing me to laugh lightly.
"Cheer up buttercup, I'll be right back." I said as I slid out of the bed and went into the bathroom that was connected to her room.
I closed the door behind me after turning on the light and look at myself in the mirror. My hair was slightly frizzy so I threw it into a messy bun before using the bathroom and washing my hands.
When I stepped back out I saw Fantasia lying on her side checking her phone with a frown. I went back over the bed, getting back in my spot as I glanced at her phone.
"I guess his little boyfriend told him about messaging me. He's been blowing my phone up since we've been asleep." She mumbled lowly as she scrolled through her notifications.
"What he say?" I asked as she scooted back over towards me. She laid her head back on my chest, turning her phone so I could see his messages.
"Just a bunch of half ass apologies and saying that he'll be gone when I get back from filming." She mumbled before locking her phone and setting it on the other side of me.
She adjusted herself so she was right above my heart again, the beating of it instantly soothing her causing her to close her eyes and relax into me. I wrapped my left arm around her, gently rubbing her back as I used my free hand to check my phone momentarily.
I glanced at her periodically, seeing her fully asleep on my third glance over. Her leg was over mine, her right arm tucked under my waist holding me tightly while her left hand was under my shirt on my stomach.
I quickly opened the camera on my phone and snapped a picture of her, pouting slightly at her cuteness. She looked so peaceful, like she did before we started filming. I could tell that the movie was taking a toll on her as it was on me.
Everything attached to this movie seemed so draining, from the interviews to the filming. Hell, even the comments online are exhausting and we hardly interact with them.
But in this moment we were both at peace, wrapped in each other's embrace and enjoying each other's company for the time being. Given her new circumstances, I doubt we'll ever be able to be this close again for a while. She has so much on her plate already and the divorce will just add more.
I sighed thinking about what the future might hold for us. My fingers slowly trailing up and down her spine as I got lost in my own thoughts.
"You're thinking too loud." I heard her whine quietly which made me laugh.
"I'm sorry, I'll try to be quiet love." I said softly as looked down at her.
Her face held a slight frown as her eyes fluttered open slowly. She looked up at me through those long wispy lashes and I got dizzy.
"Why you thinking so hard anyway?" She asked softly as her nails softly scratched my stomach.
"Just the press tour, ready for this to be over so I can go back to doing nothing." I joked lightly making her smile lightly.
"Ain't no staying in the house after this. I'm bout to be single baby we fixin ta be outside." She said making me laugh.
"Not we gon be outside. I'm too old for that." I said shaking my head.
"Girl boo, we outside like I said." She said rolling her eyes playfully.
"Whatever you say Tai." I replied shaking my head.
"Where's Dani and Gabi?" She asked tilting her head up more towards me. My eyes traveled over her entire face before I quickly put them back on hers.
"Probably asleep still or just getting up." I said, Dani yelling out to us not even a second later.
"Raji! Tasia! Where y'all at?!" Danielle called out making me laugh.
"We in here crazy!" I shouted back. I seen Fantasia slightly roll her eyes before pulling herself away from me and sitting up on the bed.
A few seconds later Danielle and Gabi walked in with bags of food and drinks.
"Dinner is served." Dani said in a horrible french accent that made Fantasia and I burst into laughter.
"Why thank you madam." I replied in a french accent as well before taking the food from her. Fantasia did the same quietly thanking her before we all sat on the bed and ate together.
