Wei Ying
As I laid on my bed, the scene from the shed kept repeating in my head.. I turned and buried my face on the pillow because of so much frustration.. what happened?? Why did he kiss me?? Yes I want to get close to him, because I wanna be friends with him.. wait.. did it gross me out?? I think about what I felt at the time he was kissing me.. hmm . I moaned.. when I think about that moan I buried my face even more on the pillow I almost lost my breath.. then I lifted my face to get some air.. I laid on my back again and touched my lips.. it's swollen.. I pouted.. it's my first kiss.. and to be honest I love how his kisses felt.. that's the hardest thing to accept. I almost lost my mind.. and just let him devour me.. I tasted my lips with my tongue I can still feel Wangji's lips pressed on mine.. he's so aggressive.. he's much stronger than me.. what would I tell him?? He said he'll wait for my answer.. in my frustrations I throw my pillow and kick the air nonstop while my fists are pounding on the bed..
"Are you crazy???" I got startled when Jiang Cheng talked I didn't even notice that he came into my room.
"You're here.."
"Yes..as you can see.. what are you still doing here?? We have sword exercise today with Master Lan Tong Shi.
"Oh..I forgot.."
"Then move your lazy ass.. where's your sword??"
"It's on the table.."
"Move now Wei ying " Jiang Cheng said his voice is angry now.. his patience is so short he gets annoyed so fast, so I stood up, but in my head, the thought of seeing Lan Zhan again is bothering me.
"Ah.. A'cheng.. Can you not leave my side today..
"Why??"
"I just feel nauseated.. maybe some poison residue is still present in my body" I got his attention, he looked worried..
"Can you still attend our class??"
"Yes, of course.. I'm absent for a week I can't afford to miss the class again..
"Okay.. I'll take care of you.. I also think there's still some poison residue left.."
"Why??"
"Your lips are swollen.." jiang cheng said it plainly, blood immediately rushed through my head making my whole face red. Jiang Cheng panicked and rushed beside me .
"Wei ying where's your medicine?? You're so red, the poison is still active..I rolled my eyes at him and patted my own cheeks..
"Let's go!" I walked pass him then I pick up my sword.
At Master Lan Tong Shi's class all of us are sitting crossed legs and we sit in a circle, our master is standing in the middle.. Lan Zhan is sitted across me exactly in front of me.. his eyes not leaving me .. I chit chat with Jiang Cheng even though I'm so conscious of Wangji's stares.. When I felt someone squeezed between me and Nie Huaisang, I turned my head to see who is it.. It's Xue Yang
"Hi Wei Ying.." Xue yang is known as homosexual.. he's having a relationship with men openly.. It's not a big deal anymore if a guy is having a men to men relationship here.. but having a man and woman relationship is still the normal
"Hi.." I answered him and smiled a bit..
"Do you want to be partner with me in the sparring session?"
"Jiang Cheng is my partner already, sorry.."
"Is that so.." he smiled.. " hey you have something on your hair, he was about to reach for my bangs but I avoided it and immediately my eyes fly to Wangji's place, his face looks grim, then he stood and walked out of the class.. Master Lan Tong Shi got dumbfounded .
"Where is Lan Zhan going??" Everyone just shakes their heads slowly.. no one knows why he left the class, just me.. And I don't know why I felt guilty at the moment, what did I do wrong???
Lan Zhan
I want to crush Xue Yang's hands. I sighed.. this is the first time I walked out of a class.. I was turning athe page of a book when my brother enters my room.
"Wangji.."
"Yes??" I know why he's here but I let him ask away..
"Are you feeling sick?"
No..
Why did you left Master Tong Shi's class?
I just sighed and couldn't answer his question..
You can tell me anything Wangji..
I'm having trouble with myself..
Why..?
"I like Wei Ying.." I saw a smile formed my brothers lips.
Hmm.. so you finally accept it..
You know?
Pffft.. the first time he introduced himself in front of yhe class I already saw how you look at him, at first I thought you saw a rival with him.. but when I saw you got worried when he had an accident, I told myself, nah.. It's more than rivalries..
Are you disappointed with me??
Why??
Because I'm not straight, I promise I tried to avoid him.. but I couldn't.. I got jealous with all the boys who's approaching him.. playing with him and touching him.
Then tell him.
I told him already..
And??
He said we're both guys. But I said I'll wait for his answer..
Then the best thing you should do is wait.. it's not easy to decide for Wei ying, maybe he's also confused right now.. don't rush him.
I just nodded, but this conversation with my brother made my head more clearer. I just hope he answers me quickly.. I can't afford to see him with others anymore . I want him for me, only for me.. I'm selfish.. If i want something I want it to be just for me.. but I can't stop everyone who's approaching him because we don't have anything between us.. it's a one sided feeling. This is also a first for me.. but when I kissed him I know I won't be able to kiss another person but him..
