**Sorry for any mistakes**
~𝘔𝘈𝘓𝘈𝘠𝘚𝘐𝘈 𝘈𝘛𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘚~
Looking in aww at the big glass of blue water right in front of my eyes, i stood there watching the fish swim around just enjoying the show.
Some how i felt at peace in this just watching.
Unintentionally smiling at the little cute fish play around with each other.. refreshing.
"You okay"
I jumped at the sound of Kashmire's voice scaring the crap outta me.
"I told you to stop sneaking up on me like that Mire dang" i glared at him but all he did was laugh and wrap his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer into the side of his body.
"My fault, you know i love fucking withchu" his laughter dying down as he joined me in watching the fish swim from the other side of the glass.
"Aye you think they know they asses is food" Mire joked.
Dumbass..
"Dick face, you always killing the vibe joking so much" i mugged him watching that perfect smile appear on his face.
"Come onnnnnn you know dat shit was funny as fuck"
Pinching him in his side, "No its not"
Holding up his hands in surrender as his laughter died down, that infamous smile still on his face.
"How you been mamas...especially since you found out ya moms done got engaged and stuff" Mire soft deep voice asked looking down at me carefully like he was studying every faint freckle on my face.
Wrapping my arms around my body i found my pony tail holder on my wrist and began to lightly pluck it against my skin.... A bad habit that I've developed over the past two years.
Truth is, i was mad.....furious as hell at my momma after finding out that all the months she was gone, she was with him.
She cared more about finding another husband than making sure her own daughter was mentally okay.
Its always been fuck her once i got older and started seeing her for the person she truly was, but after that night when she showed up with her new man....i really lost respect for her.
Thats all she cared about.
I was always gonna be her last priority, money and men came before me always.
In that moment i wish i knew who my daddy was, but i know the reason why so that made things fester even more.
I was a broken, abandoned little girl who never got the love she wanted from her mother at heart, Deep inside this body whose been crying out for help for a long time.
Clearing my throat, "i mean you know im pissed as fuck... but at the same time this is just like her so congrats to her i guess"
Hiding how i really felt always things easier for to to try and cope with.
"Nah Malaysia, you can't keep pushing how you feel deep inside crying yo eyes out alone cause of her... you my best friend who i love to death. You know how i feel and care about you...especially when it comes down to yo mental wellness. I feel like you put up this facade like you good and shit when you all know and feel all hell is breaking loose inside of you. You always making sure me in good and shit, but always dismiss things when it comes to talking about you and making sure you good"
