✔️MANAGER: SCAR OF THE PAST (Book 2) (BTS YOONGI FF)

Chapter 16

My mind went completely blank after hearing Yoongi's words, I couldn't utter a single word, and even if I could I didn't know what to say.

Yoongi's POV

I looked at her with so much emotion, she was still looking at me but her eyes tell everything she felt right now. I didn't wait for her reply and continued.

"If you are wondering how I found out. It was the last time I was in your house I saw your father's diary and read everything that includes my accident in it"

"Yoongi, I was planning on telling you about it once I resolve it," She said, making me more upset.

"So you're just going to leave me in the shadow until then?" I said, trying to control my emotions.

"No, I was just terrified of what you are going to think of me and my father once you find out the truth knowing that it left you with a huge scar," She said and I could hear her voice start shaking.

"My past doesn't matter anymore Y/n maybe I still have the trauma from it but I am learning how to accept that scar being part of the whole me"

"I am concerned and worried that you will feel so much r-regret about not finding out that I am the d-daughter of the person who almost ended your l-life and I feel there will be a growing anger within you once you know e-everything" I can tell she is holding her tear as her words keep breaking.

"Y/n we've been together for more than two years and we spend so much time together. Can you not notice that I am not the person I was before who was imprisoned by their past? Okay, finding out that you're the daughter of the man who caused my accident doesn't anger me but what makes me enraged is the fact that you didn't tell me about it, and you were taking action on your own. I ask you if there is something that I could help you with but you refuse....."

"Because I....." I didn't let her speak and continue what I was saying.

"It reminded me of what happened to your abusive step-parents back then. Remember? you also refused my help and you didn't explain anything to me when I showed you concern. I know you don't want to worry anyone and be involved in a mess but now I am included in that mess but you still chose to keep it hidden from me. What do you think will I feel about that?"

Y/N's POV

I am feeling the urge to cry but I can't do it, now that I know I messed up so bad. The thought of solving the problem on my own can make a good result but in the end, it made it worse. 

"I know, I made a huge mistake and I a-apologize for it but as I continue revealing the whole truth the more I don't want you to get involved....." I wasn't able to finish my sentence when he suddenly spoke.

"There! That's the problem here, you don't want me to be involved even though I constantly keep telling you that I am willing to lend you a hand no matter what the situation is. You are pushing yourself to solve everything on your own that you are forgetting you are in a relationship with me and that means I have a responsibility to help you when you are in distress. Not making me involved in this kind of thing is you making me think that I wouldn't be able to help you or I will be just in the way" He explained and I could feel that he was expressing his sorrow in his words.

"But you know that's not true Yoongi, It's just that....." Even I couldn't think of a proper reason seeing that everything was all my fault.

"I know that but I can't keep telling myself that every time, when all of the negative thoughts keep on hitting me like a truck. There is a limit of someone being understanding Y/n and I have overreached that limit and it's making me look pathetic"

"Yoongi, I'm so sorry for making you feel that way I was so blinded by making people I care about safe and protecting their happiness that I didn't notice that I was preventing them from growing and seeing the reality. But please understand me for now I cannot bear it if anything happens to you if get you involved in my problem" I said gathering all of my remaining strength to convince him.

"You know what forget it"

"What?" I ask terrified at what he is going to say.

"I cannot continue this, knowing the fact that we are each other's misery"

"Yoongi, You couldn't be possibly thinking of......"

"Maybe you're right, the more I looked at you I could only see regret, anger, and nothing more" and with those words, I already could tell where this was heading.

"Are you ending our relationship?" I said as I grabbed both of his hands for the last time and looked at him full of regret in my eyes. He looked back at me without saying anything, he sighed and slowly removed his hands from my grip.

"I'm going back to our room" And he just walked away, I watched him until he entered the house and I couldn't see him. I turned around and faced the sea my legs collapsed as they were holding on like me and not making Yoongi see this miserable side of me.

The Happiness that we dreamed of, suddenly tortured us with our forgotten past. 'Why did we even start this?' Without knowing that we will only hurt each other's hearts. I looked at the shining moon and tears started forming in my eyes. 'Why is my reality like this?' 'My story sucks...... like both of my past and present cannot enjoy life'. My tears cannot hold on anymore as they pour down my face nonstop. 'Right, just cry it all out. I am my peace but I'm also my destruction'

"Y/n, you chose this path. Now, carry everything and keep moving forward" I said to myself while my eyes dried up from all the crying. I got up and dusted myself. I looked at my side and saw a familiar face from afar. 'Why do I feel like I know him?' I squinted my eyes and then the person slowly turned to face me. I widened my eyes, I was about to break eye contact when the person started smiling wide and made his eyes bigger.

No One's POV

'I finally found you, the child of my precious best friend'