oh. | isaac garcia

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ITS BEEN TWO WEEKS since i've been out my room i guess this is what mourning feels like. it's definitely not a good feeling.

i haven't eaten. i haven't spoken to anyone. i haven't moved one bit. i feel numb. i don't know how to feel. i've spent most of my time high out of my mind even though i know my brother wouldn't of wanted this. i just don't know what do do with myself anymore. i feel like i haven't got anything to live for.

Katherine's pov:

"has anyone checked up on her recently?" i say really worrying about the child's mental health she hasn't eaten anything, she hasn't spoken to anyone. nothing.

"she won't answer" Alex says back to me also worrying about his best friend. "i don't know what to do anymore" i say looking at my husband on my right. "it's going to be okay" he says rubbing my shoulder.

"i'm going to try again" Alex says getting up out his chair.

Lesley's pov:

I'm high out of my mind. it's been weeks since i relapsed. no one knows other than Isaac. it's the only way i can escape it all, my thoughts, i hate it.

i hear a knock on the door at this point i am sat on the floor with my back against my bed. "hey les" i look up to see Alex at the door. i feel bad because all i have done is ignore him and he's meant to be my best friend i feel like a shitty friend.

"hey" i say back in a low tone. "hey you okay?" he says scrunching his eyebrows together looking closely at my eyes. "great" i say back with a little smile.

"wait are you high?" he says with a disappointed look on his face.

i look down.

"you relapsed?" he says abut lower this time.
"i'm sorry" i say to him with tears in my eyes.
"hey it's okay, it's okay" he says sitting next to me.

he throws his hand around me and i tilt my head to rest it on his shoulder.

"i don't know what to do anymore Alex" i say
"your in mourning les, it's normal, you'll get better over the time" "i hope so"

we sit there in silence for a-bit but the good silence.

Katherine walks in asking if we wanted to eat
"hey guys dinners ready if you want to come down" she says walking in the room.

"not hungry" i say

"alex can you just leave us alone for a-bit" Katherine says. Alex leaves taking a quick look back at me.

"hey sweetie" she says sitting next to me where Alex sat before her.

"hey" i say back not really wanted to speak.

"les, i know it's hard, but i really want to help, i am so so sorry for your loss and i don't want to feel like i'm intruding in anyway, i just really want to say how proud of you i am, honestly you are the most precious, beautiful and bravest person i have ever come across"

at this point i am balling my eyes out from the moment she says those words.

see mom why was it so hard for you to say them words

"now i'm not trying to force you to eat sweetie, but you really need to eat"

she right you could basically see my rib cage at this point.

i hug her and before i know what words came out of my mouth.

"thanks mom" i say.

i'm pretty sure i caught her out of surprise because i heard a little gasp escape her mouth.

i love that woman so much she had done so much for me and i am forever graceful.

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