oh. | isaac garcia

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SO ITS BEEN A couple days and i can't stop thinking about everything between me and Isaac. i don't know what this means for us i don't want it to be awkward between us or anything but every time i see him i can't help but look the other way. i just feel too scared to talk to him or even look him in the eye.

but i guess it didn't matter to him tho did it.

The Wednesday before:

as i walked into school. from being on the field smoking trying to get everything of my mind i was in hoping to see no one. but i see the one thing a girl didn't want to see

i see a girl coming out of the cleaners cupboard. i see a girl with her lipstick smudged all over her face. and guess who was giving her a kiss goodbye. yup. Isaac Garcia. the boy that was meant to be mine.

i thought we were something. guess not.

it was too late to turn back. i locked eyes with Isaac. with a bit of shock on my face. i quickly look away to see the girl walking past me with a smirk on her face.

i scoff and walk into the toilets locking myself in there. and tears flowing down my cheeks. i feel like a baby. why am i crying over a boy.

a shitty boy.

i never want to see him again.

i never want to talk to him again.

recent day:

"hey beautiful" i hear katherine say behind me as i get myself a drink of orange juice fro m the fridge "hey" i say back.

"so" she says with a little smile on her face "what" i say confused "what do you want to do for your birthday"

kind of forgot about it. didn't realise it's the day after tomorrow.

"oh i don't know nothing really" i say not really wanting to celebrate it.

it's my first birthday without milo. i don't want to celebrate it without him.

"come on lesley it's your 17th birthday you've got too" "i don't know"

"hey les, you ready for school" cole come up behind me.

"yeah" i say getting my bag on and taking my last sip of my drink.

"let's go guys" cole says shouting telling everyone to hurry up.

"hey you coming les?" cole says trying to get everyone out the house "we no it's okay i'm gunna drive myself there" "oh okay" he says

i just really don't want to see isaac.

i get to school obviously late, and obviously high. i dont really remember a day i wasn't high any more. it's getting bad again.

as i enter the school i feel hands on my shoulders and pushing me to a room. i turn around to see isaac shutting the door behind him

"what are you doing, let me out" i say to him
"les talk to me" "what's going on with you?" "nothing" i say giggling. this high is on another level.

"les are you high?, les you've not stopped smithing recently what is with you, you need to stop"

didn't realise it was that bad.

"who are you to tell me what to do" "les i'm just trying to help" "i never ask for your help" i say shouting louder than he is. "fine you want to ruin your life with all these drugs you do that but don't be begging for your life when your in the hospital because you've overdosed again"

wow.

"what the fuck did you just say" u say in a low voice while his words just sink in.

"les i didn't mean that" "you sure, because every time we have some 'moment' you always have to distant your self from me are you sure that's not what you think of me?" "what are you talking about?" he says

"oh my god how stupid are you that kiss we had i thought we had something then you just go and kiss that girl the next day, pretty sure you did more" "isaac am i just a toy to you?"

"what lesley no" "well it sure feels like it"
i say before leaving him.

so sorry guys i've not been posting.
but i really need some ideas:(