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Where were you when I needed you so badly?

Hello! This is the Author writting. I just wanted to let you all know before this story starts that Im sorry that I havent been updating this, I was sick and I ran out of ideas what to write but hey I go Ideas now. This will be an Angst chapter because I just love angst.. OOPS, but anyways. ENJOY READING THIS CHAPTER!Also I am so sorry if its shitty as fuck.

Buck had been severely depressed after Chase Mackey had setted him up by going to the 118 firehouse while Buck was on his day off and telling them that he had once filled a lawsuit again on them. He didnt know why but he guess Chase Mackey had knew he was going through something and used it to act like Buck once again filled a law suit on his FAMILY.

The next day Buck went to work he was smilling and it was once ruined by Chim screaming why he was so happy whenI filled a law suit on them. He was shocked and denied it but Bobby showed him some proof Chase Mackey had shown them, Buck begged them to believe him but non of them did. Non of them even looked at him. Bobby had told him he already switched his station and thats where it took him now.

BUCKS POV.
It has been almost a month Ive been here at 126 and almost 1 month of Chade Makey making up a story I once filled a lawsuit on my team again. Ive been trying so hard to go on and not quit life but today everything just exploded. I woke up early to drop off the letter, Some folder for the 118 and some brownies to the 126. Ever since I was switched stations by Bobby I had became cold and only lets my emotions out in my house. There were glass everywhere and holes that I made from punching the wall. I wasn't worried about my neighbors as I rented a house with no one living beside me. I never contacted anyone beside Owen or T. K. they were caring and Im greatful they were and their team. But it never felt the same as the 118.

I never regretted it. I never regretted quitting on 126. It hurted me, They were good and kind but I miss the 118 and it hurted me. Chase Mackey destroyed my life. I was mad at Chase Mackey, No. I was mad at me, I was the one who destroyed my life. Non of this wouldve happened if I just didnt fill the lawsuit in the first place then I wouldn't have met Chase Mackey.

I went home after dropping everything in the 126 firehouse. Once I got in my house I went straight to the kitchen and got a knife and went to the bathroom.

‼️WARNING: Self harm starts here. Please skip this part if you are uncomfortable with this.‼️

Closing the door I looked in the mirror on the wall below the sink. I letted the tears fall down my cheeck before I looked at my wrist and place the knife on them. I started cutting with rage I cannot word out until I stopped. Blood had almosted covered my left arm and I didnt care. I wiped down a few tears before finding a first aid kit in my bathroom and bandaging myself up. I cleaned the floor as blood drops was scattered around before going out and going to my room to wear a hoodie.

‼️END OF SELFHARM‼️

NO ONES POV
Buck continued this for week. He expected no one to contact him but he got many texts and calls from Owen and T. K. causing him to turn it off for another whole week. Until he felt weak and dizzy. He was in the corner of his living with bloody hands. Bloody cloth and drops of blood on his living room floor. He felt like dying and might as well call his sister who was important to him whom who was the reason that he tried to stay alive for. He had managed to get his phone and had finnally opened his phone after turning it off for a whole week and he was met with many messages from a groupchat he didnt remember being in when he turned his phone off, he didnt care and called the groupchat, which someone answered fast, and he was shocked to see Bobby, Athena, Maddie, Chim, Eddie and Hen in the same car. Athena was the one who answered the phone and questioned him with panic in her eyes. "Buckaroo where are you!? Are you ok!? Please tell me ur ok please!" Buck replied with a cold and weak voice "Im fine... Can I.. Can I talk to Maddie?.." And with that Athena passed the phone to Maddie "Buck where are you!? Just tell us. Please." Maddie said as she cried. Buck felt guilty but it was already too late. "I think its too late for that no?.. I just wanted to tell you that.. I love you big sis.. You were the reason I tried to stay alive, along with Bobby, Athena, Eddie, Chris, Je-yun, Chim, Hen and everybody else.. Even tho Bobby and the rest of the 118 believed a shitty lawyer more than me.. I dont blame you all.. I blame myself. Non of this wouldve happ-" Buck was suddenly cutted off by Bobby telling him "No! No. Buck. Everything wasnt your fault! Look, the lawsuit you filled was shitty yea but what we did was so much worse, We gave you the cold shoulder and didn't even care for you, When you were out there caring for us, and what we did now was even worse." Maddie was in tears, Chim was there comforting him and Athena was crying. While Eddie tried to held his tears back along with Bobby. Buck smiled weakly thankful his camera was off so they couldn't see him like this "Im sorry.. I really am..But I wanna sleep Mads.." And thats where chaos broke down "Stay awake buck! For me! For us! Buck please..." Athena was in the background in a call with T.K. And Bobby was driving a bit faster. Chim was trying his best to calm Maddie down and Eddie was staring off the window with tears streaming down his face while Hen was taking turns to talk to T.K. For information. While Buck was nodding off with tears also streaming down his face, he kept mumbling a bunch of sorries and his vision was getting blurry so he said one more thing before he could pass out. "I love you all...I..I've always had..Thats my curse..Wasn't it? All of this..It wasn't all of your faults..It was mines."