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I fell in love with Lisa the exact instant I met her. She was different from the other girls, I wasn't sure why, maybe because of her short hair and tomboy look or maybe because she was the first and only foreigner in the whole company, maybe because out of 4000 people she was the only one to pass. I don't know. I just knew Lisa was special.
And even now after we became BLACKPINK, after having released our single How You Like That and having many wins, I still didn't have the courage to confess my feelings. People shipped us and many thought me and Lisa were an actual thing but kept it secret, trust me that if Lisa was my girl the whole world would know, but sadly she wasn't.
Nobody knew I had a crush on her, but I was pretty sure Jennie and Chaeyoung had their suspects. The only thing I suspected was that Lisa had a huge crush either on Bae Juhyun aka Irene or Jackson Wang. Either way, she didn't seem to be interested in me in more than a friendly way.
Which hurt.
It hurt a lot.
Especially since we were very close, not only because we lived together and were like sisters, but we were very physical and didn't know what personal space was. Just like now. Lisa was laying on the couch beside me, both under the covers as we watched a movie with Jennie and Chaeyoung, my arm draped over her.
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She had her back completely attached to me as I sometimes caressed her arm, in moments like this, sure I was in pain, yet at the same time I felt so happy. Just having Lisa in my arms and cuddled to me was all I needed to feel better.
Once the movie was doneJennie and Chaeyoung were fast asleep on the bed couch, so, silently I lookedat Lisa who was looking at me and told her whispering «Let's go to sleep aswell.» Lisa nodded sitting up and wrapping herself in the blanket, she said whisperingas well «Can I sleep with you Jisoo unnie?» I hummed and nodded, receiving a big smile and a silent happy dance from her«Thanks unnie!» I hushed her and smiled «You're welcome. But don't make noise you're gonna wakeChaennie up.» she puffed her cheeks smiling and nodded, following me to my room as we were already in our PJs.
