In The Darkness

15.the truth

Once Pedro walked out I got in the bed to go to sleep. It was a struggle for me to go to bed considering what i have to face tomorrow... after a couple of hours I finally dozed off. I woke up to Serg kissing my forehead. "Good morning mami". He look at my face and noticed this look on there. "Is everything okay". I wanted to tell him but it wouldn't come out. "I'm okay baby I've just missed you while you were gone". I get out the bed and hug him. I hugged him as tight and as long as I could this might be the last time we hug.

He grabbed my hand and took me down stairs to eat his mother cooking. While down there I see Pedro and Jose. Jose looked at me with the smuggest look ever as if he couldn't stand me. Pedro avoided me. Which was for the best and Jose knew I didn't tell his brother. We all sat down at the table and Serg and his mother noticed the vibe. "What the hell happened while we were gone" Serg said looking around. It was an awkward silence. Jose decided to speak. "Pedro...ro why don't you guys tell him why the vibe is so off" Jose looked at us. "Jose don't" kharm said trying to tame him. Sergio mom looked at Pedro trying to get the truth out. I decided to speak up. "Serg before I tell you this I want you to know that I love you more than you could ever know". Sergio heart started beating fast he knew  where this is leading too.

Pedro interrupted me. "I kissed royalty and had sex with her" "what the fuck" Sergio said so angrily. I never seen him like this. "Look Serg she was drunk and under the influence I swear to god she told me no multiple times and I forced my self on her". I look a serg to see him mad to the point where tears almost felled from his eyes. He was hurt. "Sergio I love you and I never wanted this to happened I didn't want anything with Pedro okay you have to believe me." I say crying and trying to get him to believe me. Sergio mom was in disbelief. "Pedro you fucking asshole your trying to get back at me for something that happened in middle school seriously? We were fucking kids man. Your my family, my blood and you sleep with my woman, the first girl I ever loved... this how the fuck you do me? Ro.. I don't know what to say.  

I've should've known something was fucking up with you two. Everytime you're around each you act weird. Ro I trusted you, you seemed so different." Serg walked out of the house. I started crying heavily to the point where I couldn't breathe.  "Ro where's your asthma pump? Where's your pills? Hey ro talk to me do not black out please!!" Kharm said as she joined me on the floor. I couldn't answer any of her questions. I couldn't think. I couldn't breathe . I hurt Serg. It was my fault. I was having a fucking panic attack. My vision went black and I heard faint voices as I passed out. I woke up in a bright place with a nurse and a doctor in my room with kharm. "Oh sis thank god you're okay I was so worried about you". She hugged me strongly. "What happened to me?" "You had a panic attack which caused your asthma to flare up causing a big catastrophe" the doctor said. "You'll be okay just take your medication and don't do anything that could cause you to panic". "Thanks doc". Jose walked in.He looked at me to make sure I was okay before speaking  "Hey ro I'm sorry that I caused all this, that's just my brother". I interrupted him. "Look Jose I understand ok I would do the same thing about my sister." "Ro I could tell that you meant everything you said and that you love my brother, I want you guys to be together but I ruined it". "You didn't ruin anything  I ruined it by messing around." "Okay changed the subject so she wont panic again". Kharm said. I chuckled at her and Sergio came in.

"We'll give you two some space" Jose said and him and kharm walked out. "Hey Serg" I said in shocked. "Hey ro". It was a silence. I didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to say. It was so awkward. "Look ro, I love you more than anybody I have ever loved but with what's all going on I don't think we should talk right now".

It was silent again. "Your breaking up with me?" My voice cracked. "I think it's for the best, look royalty you can still stay over I'll just sleep in the guess room". Tears started falling down my face. "Ok if that's what you want". Sergio kissed my forehead and walked out. This pain and feeling that I felt in my chest. My heart felt so empty yet so heavy. My mind raced with different thoughts and my stomach felt sick. I didn't want to move or talk to anyone. Soon the doctor dismissed me and Jose and kharm drove me back to his home. I walked in the house as Sergio mom eyes looked at me. She didn't look like she hate me but more like she understood me. She asked me to sit with her and I did. "So royalty what happened Dulce niña?"

"Pedro he provoked me all the time and I just felt into his traps everytime, miss I promise I love Sergio more than anything but my mind keeps letting Pedro in." I look down. "Hey miss royalty this has happened to me before with my once husband and his brother, I know the feeling, I was a young woman just turned 21 I had strict socias wouldn't let me do anything so when I grew up and was finally able to experience stuff I did somethings that were wrong, royalty I can tell that your family hasn't been that perfect because every their brought up Dejas fuera a la gente but trust me Sergio loves you more than anything and I know for a fact he'll come around just give him time and do right by him...ok?" "Yes maam". She hugged me then gave me the sweetest smile. "Plus I feel like you'll two will make me some pretty grand babies". We laugh together. "Well goodnight miss royalty get your rest. "Good night miss" I say walking off into Sergio room.

I laid on the bed and started crying my eyes out. It was dark and quiet. I cried my self to sleep. Lonely and cold.