i tell you "sweet dreams"
when i wanna say "lets talk more"
i ask about your day
when i want to call you and tell you bout mine
i say "its no worries, studies come first"
when i mean to keep you for some more time cause its just a test, right?
i try to see past all your previous insta posts cause its your personality that i like
my friends tell me "you're blind"
cause its your personality that i like right?
late night convos are my favourite cause that's all i get with you
goodbyes i hate cause when we say one of those, i dont see you for the next week
i hate saturdays cause the urge to text you again eats me up from the inside
i hate mondays cause our sunday night talks remain in my head
i hate those smileys you send cause i cant figure whether youre smiling behind the screen or just judging me
are our conversations private or the hot gossip in a group chat?
were we ever anything special as you said or were my texts just a backup plan for you?
i think of all these questions in mere seconds but never been able to ask you even one
cause im scared your answer will be the same as the one my mind gave me
cause im scared your answer will wash away the small hope my heart holds
that if i try to ask you any of those
your answer will be the same as the one my mind gives.
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Epiphany:
I say "sweet dreams" when I want to keep talking and ask about your day when I want to share mine. I brush off studies as an excuse to keep you longer. Late-night conversations are my favourite, but goodbyes hurt knowing I won't see you for a week. I overanalyze every message, wondering if our connection is real or just convenience. I'm scared to ask because I fear your answer will confirm my doubts and shatter the hope in my heart.
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A/N
Wrote this after my man rejected me ever so politely. Now I couldn't even get mad at him SO I wrote! Ofc. It's what the basic one-sided liking, relationships and other connections are like. One person puts in the effort while the other puts in the effort to ignore and deny their feelings. But you do realize it sooner or later, it's fine. Happens with everyone and no you're not desperate, they are just not worth it.
Take care peeps! :)
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Heartstrings and Shadows
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