Broken and Nothing

Chapter 13

Waking up this morning was the last thing I ever wanted to do,and that's not even near me being dramtaic. Ever since last night, I have been thinking,what is exactly the good in life everyone talks about.

I starting slowing my pace to school because I don't know how everyone would react, and no matter what the reaction is, it's not ever going to be good. Nothing good happens to me, I thought. Today I just threw on an oversized hoodie and yoga pants. I felt like no one caress which they dont, and I want to hide the scars from last night so, I just threw my hood on and went to my locker.
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The day went on like every other except for a bit more stares I received here and there, but lunch time came and I sat in my usual seat away from everyone not once even daring to look up at anyone or anything. I held a book in my lap just as an excuse to what I was doing, and just to pass time. I heard someone sit in a chair at my table slowly bumping the table and I lifted my head up just enough to see who it was, by there choice in clothes. Ryan.

I grabbed my book and bag, leaving my lunch tray that I haven't even touched, and started walking away. Soon as I went to take the second step he grabbed my arm yanking me back. Since I was so little compared to him, I slammed into his chest. I winced at the pain shooting through me,from the scars hitting his body with so much force. The cafeteria was silent and I could just feel the eyes on Ryan and I.

He started to take my good down, but I grabbed his hand.

"Please don't", I whispered, tears threatening to spill.

"What,why,whats wrong?"he questioned quickly and dragged me out of the lunch room.

"Nothing, I have to go", I said in a rush lightly.Pulling away, but his grip tightened. After I winced once more, he loosened it up and flipped my hood down. His eyes widened and moth opened but closed, not knowing what to say.

"What happened" , he asked staring deeply into my eyes.

"I actsudently tripped, grabbing into a pot of boiling water,which led to it dumping on me and now I'm scarred permanently..", I finished sighing and walking backwards eventually taking off. I decided just to skip the rest of the day and go somewhere. I walked through the woods only a few blocks away from the school and my house.

Finally I reached my favorite place to be free. The cliffs. I used to always go here when something bad happened or just want to get away, but I haven't got to much lately.

I stayed till darkness started to take over and slowly slipped into the house, going to my room. I took a quick shower and dressed to go to bed for the night. No thoughts in my head and went to sleep slowly and peacefully.