Broken and Nothing

Chapter 21

I stared at the tv, but I didn't really pay attention to it, what I was paying attention to was all the thoughts going through my head.
what's going to happen to my dad?
will he get back at me?
what if he knows I was the one that turned him in..
I sighed and rolled over staring at the ceiling to clear my mind. It was harder at first but soon sleep took over me.

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I woke up, slowly rolling off my deConstructed bed. As I stood up, everything seemed to pop and hurt ten times as worse than it did yesterday. I got up and walked towards the kitchen when I heard whispering. When I stepped in Ryan walked back upstairs, and Melanie softly smiled at me.

"I'll drive you to your house and help you gather your things and bring you back here, I'll make a room up for you",she said drying her hands and grabbing her keys. We hoped in her car and pulled up to my house just a few minutes later. I packed up all the things I needed and left everything that I could do without and put everything into the back of Melanie's car.
   After unloading it all into the house I sighed and realized that things might get better now, I'm not anywhere near my dad and I won't get hurt anymore.
  Melanie came from upstairs and grabbed one of my boxes and I grabbed a few smaller ones and followed her into a nice room. It was pretty holding a desk in the corner,a tv on the wall and a window. It was picture perfect to me. I thanked Melanie and went back down to get all of my boxes so I could start putting things away and make it officially my room.
  As I put down the last thing I flopped on the bed and thought back to me thinking that things just might get better from here on out.
I'm still broken and nothing,I'm scared no one wants me.
But at the last minutes before I fell asleep I remembered that Ryan called me beatiful.
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A week later
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Since I've been staying at Ryan's house I thought we could hang out more,but ever since last week he practically ignored me and I felt sad. I don't know why or what made me feel the way I did but I didn't feel like me, I haven't even been happy like I was with him.
   I've missed enough school since the incident and I decided I should go today, as I finished getting ready I heard Ryan leave quickly. I frowned a bit,but shook it off and started walking to school. Walking cleared my head but as soon as I seen the school I thought what will people think?. I gained some confidence and walked in letting the day start normally.