I finally manage to pull myself together to ease the anger that was coursing through my body I decide that if he didn't like me then that's fine I don't really care what he thinks I've never cared about what people think about me, I'm not gonna start now Why should I care about what an absolute stranger thinks about me when I could be , the usual bad ass bitch I am I need to remember who I am
I decide to put on my lipgloss and take my hair down I run my fingers through it to make it look a lot prettier I take a look at myself in the mirror I see that I look. Hot which makes me smile to my self as i swing the bathroom door open and walk back towards the table I sit down smiling
"Right where were we guys" I ask them looking around the table at all they're confused faces, havens smiling and rudys scowling which makes me laugh
"That's the Mackenzie stokes I know" haven says laughing as I smile at her
"So this is my sister real personality" Chase says chucking which the other apart from Rudy all laugh along with him
"Well dearest brother the is a lot more to the real me?" I smirk getting up standing in front of the table "do y'all want anything my treat" I ask them hoping I have enough money for them all if they want anything, I decide to ignore havens stares of confusion as I check my bank account as they all say there orders I see that I have 50 dollars in there which will only be enough for groceries because it's my turn to buy those
"Well actually do y'all want to go to mine and haves apartment it's just around the corner" I say shrugging as I walk towards the door " y'all coming?" I question as they all look at me curiously while haven just shakes her head getting up ,grabbing her purse and walking to me the cast follow her and rudys just standing there staring at me "Why can't we stay here?" He questions with a smirk "Because I'm hungry and I've got some fruit at mine although if you wanna stay I don't mind leaving your ass here blondie" I smirk walking out the door which makes Maddison says "Chase I absolutely love your sister" which makes me quietly laugh as I walk ahead I walk in the apartment building just as I realise I'm taking a bunch of famous people into a small rented shared apartment which is completely nothing special, one of the said famous people is my brother I must have halted in my step when I feel someone crash into my back I look and see that it's Rudy "Watch where your going" Rudy says looking at me In anger which just makes me smirk "don't you like the view from behind me blondie" I smirk laughing quietly at his speechless posture as I walk to the front door that havens just opened with her key
"Welcome to our mansion" I say laughing walking inside making the group laugh except Rudy who's just scowling to himself
"I see my sister has a great personality" Chase laughs "But not a great apartment" Rudy mumbles which makes me quickly spin round shooting daggers at him
"Well some of us can't afford nice houses Rudy" I say annoyed at him as I walk into my kitchen I open the fridge and immediately groan all the is in there is some fruit which is expiring tomorrow and half a carton of milk I grab a banana and walk to the couch I feel everybody look at me , "what" I say eating the banana
"Your living like this" Chase asks gesturing around which I give him a confused look "Yeah what's wrong with it" I reply curiously "Nothings wrong with it but please don't hate me when I ask this" he asks I give him an annoyed look "are you okay with like being able to afford the essentials?" He asks which honestly makes me me feel so embarrassed who wouldn't feel embarrassed I'm a 23 year old who's sharing with her best friend with barely anything in the fridge "why are you asking this" I say becoming defensive "he's saying this because common we all know that your not the best with your um , financial status, look around yourself" Rudy pipes up making me snap my head towards him "well excuse me I was speaking to my brother" I snap Turning back towards Chase "what did you mean" I ask him "Mackenzie I didn't mean to offend you I just wanted to know how your living" he says softly
"Chase I mean this in the nicest way possible you don't understand what's happened in my life" I tell him in a bitchy tone
"And I won't if you don't tell me" he says while all the others are looking at us in confusion I sigh looking towards him "listen Im not some type of charity case okay and I will tell you when I want too" I say calmly knowing that the will have to be a conversation that has to be had with Chase about my past something I knew that would always happen but in reality I was always hoping to put it off completely
Knowing that was never an option I decide to just tell Chase when I'm officially ready to tell him knowing it won't be an easy conversation to Have but one that needs to happen
"Right are we all just gonna be morbid or are you gonna tell me things about you" I ask putting the banana in the trash looking at Chase who smiles as the him , the others and haven find places to sit I tell them that I'm gonna go put my coat in my room
As soon as I am in the safety of my own room I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding, I feel as if my worlds gonna come crumbling down now that Chase has seen the place I live although I didn't have much choice it's either that or him finding out I don't have much money what was I supposed to do, I collect my thoughts all together, and lock them away like I always do I push this facade up so no one sees the real me, the broken girl, the depressed girl , the traumatised girl, that's one thing I won't ever let anyone see never i'd have to be fully out of my sense to let anyone see that part of me.
Who knew that I'd do the exact opposite of what I thought I would do I let him see me, the real me , the broken girl , he picked up my shattered pieces and put them back in place somehow, that's how I knew I'd be okay as long as I have him...
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