Silent Whispers | Rudy Pankow

𝟢𝟤: 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓅𝑜𝓃𝓈𝑒

𝑀𝒶𝒸𝓀𝑒𝓃𝓏𝒾𝑒'𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱

The unanswered questions I have race around my head , will I ever get the answers I desperately need , the answers I deserve, will my biological family even want me probably not nobody ever wants me , as a child all I wanted to do was to be held and told how much I'm loved yet I never got any of that I got pushed and shoved and told how worthless I was , the pain and harshness I went through in those foster homes was something that no one could ever imagine, the only time I felt safe is when I was living with Mrs Watson she was the only type of parental figure I've ever had in my entire life , these twenty three years seem pointless, what's the actual point In my life, when I'm just disposable , no one's ever gonna want me

I'm a twenty three year old girl living in a two bedroom apartment that I share with my best friend , I don't have a job I can barely afford the rent on this place let alone anything luxurious not that I need anything like that anyways
A ping from my phone breaks me out of my thoughts just as haven looks at me
"Is it her" she asks which I nod in response while staring down at my phone with shaky hands I click the notification I see that she has replied I open instagram

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@𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓏𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓈
𝐻𝒾 𝐼'𝓂 𝑀𝒶𝒸𝓀𝑒𝓃𝓏𝒾𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓈
𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝓂𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝒷𝑒 𝓂𝓎 𝓂𝑜𝓂?

@𝒿𝑒𝓃𝓃𝒾𝒻𝑒𝓇𝒸𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝟦
𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒾𝓈𝓃'𝓉 𝓅𝑜𝓈𝓈𝒾𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒
𝐼 𝑔𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽 𝓉𝑜 𝒶 𝒸𝒽𝒾𝓁𝒹 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝟤𝟥 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

@𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓏𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓈
𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉'𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝐼'𝓂 𝟤𝟥 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑜𝓇𝓅𝒽𝒶𝓃𝒶𝑔𝑒
𝓉𝑜𝓁𝒹 𝓂𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽 𝓂𝑜𝓂

@𝒿𝑒𝓃𝓃𝒾𝒻𝑒𝓇𝒸𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝟦
𝒪𝓀𝒶𝓎 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝒾𝓉'𝓈 𝓅𝑜𝓈𝓈𝒾𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝑒
𝒾𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 , 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓆𝓊𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝒻𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓀𝓁𝓎 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝑜𝓃
𝒹𝑜𝑒𝓈𝓃'𝓉 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊.

@𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓏𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓈
𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊.
𝓌𝒶𝒾𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒶 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝓎 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉
𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓂𝑒, 𝐼'𝒹 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒𝑒𝓉 𝒽𝒾𝓂

@𝒿𝑒𝓃𝓃𝒾𝒻𝑒𝓇𝒸𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝟦
𝒲𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝓌
𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝑒𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒽𝒾𝓂 𝓉𝒽𝓇𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽 𝓂𝑒
𝒮𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝒷𝓎 @𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓏𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓀𝑒𝓈

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Well there we go the truth is out I officially know that I have a brother the issue is my my birth mom won't let me even contact him so it looks like I'll have to do some investigating myself.

"So what'd she say" haven asks looking at me curiously
"It's official I have a brother but my birth mom said that I can't meet or contact him and she doesn't want any contact with me" I say sighing with tears in my eyes but I push them down