Silent Whispers | Rudy Pankow

06: playing with fire

𝑀𝒶𝒸𝓀𝑒𝓃𝓏𝒾𝑒'𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱

I pull myself together like ten minutes of being in here, as soon as I've had a little moment to myself I stand up walking to my bedroom door my hand shaking a little as I slowly turn the handle , I need to get a grip this isn't me, I've never been the type of girl just to break under pressure, although I'm sure growing up with the type of abuse that happened to me would have caused the emotionless girl who's now me, I never had the luxury of things that other kids my age had, I was never able to have birthday parties, friends or even feel loved the way a kid should feel, instead the things I felt in my childhood was pain, torture, abuse , hatred I felt weak being the young seven year old girl cowering away from Mr Wicks my foster dad who was meant to look after me but he just abused me for the 5 years I was with him ,the only type of love I felt was from when I was a few days old till I turned four and Mrs Watson got sick and I was put in the foster system again, since then my life's been hell since then

The universe must hate me, I never understood what I did so wrong to have all this happen to me, I still don't understand what the gods above did this to me but the is no point in trying to understand it when I know for a fact I'll never get any answers to that question, the world is full of pain and problems, I'll never have the type of love or happiness that you see in movies, it wouldn't be that easy, life isn't that easy

The short walk from my bedroom to the living room is excruciatingly painful being alone with my thoughts is something that I don't like, I don't like to be trapped in my own mind with no way out, it's the most painful feeling

I push the thought to the back of my mind, the place they will be better off knowing if I don't get out of my own thoughts now I'll be stuck in them for the rest of the day
Which is in fact something that I do not want nor do I have the mental capacity for that

"There she is" Chase says as I plop down next to him on the couch as Drew speaks up
"Shall we play truth or dare so Mackenzie can get to know us and we can get to know her" he suggests which just as I'm about to say no Rudy says something "you think this prissy princess is gonna play truth or dare" he says scoffing which makes me smirk "who thinks I won't do it you just obviously haven't met someone like me." I say which makes everyone else laugh as I'm getting comfy where I'm sat in between Chase and haven

"Right I'll start haven says making the others stop laughing I can feel Rudy glaring at me so I whisper to Chase "I think your friend is not the nicest" I say chuckling which makes Chase laugh "jd truth or dare?" Haven asks Jonathan he thinks for a minute before he decides to choose truth "one person you've had a crush on" haven asks him which makes him and the rest of us accept Rudy laugh "all seven of them" he says laughing making us laugh harder "Zoe kravitz" he answers the game continues until maddison asks me truth or dare I say dare to which she dares me to set up a dating app which I do I set up a tinder profile, the game continues with lots of different chaotic things happening until Rudy asks me truth or dare ,me being me forgot that Rudy doesn't like me so I go with truth which leads to the question he asks "why are you faking being related to Chase?" Everyone looks shocked except Rudy he has a smirk on his face like he's caught me doing something I shouldn't be doing

"I'm not lying do you wanna see the email of who my mom is? Or the text from chases mom, my mom" I ask him keeping myself calm because this man makes me feel so much anger, with just a small sentence.

He just laughs while the others are looking around the room, curious to why he's laughing although I know that kind of laugh all too well because that's the  sinister laugh, the type of laugh before the person who is laughing does or says something completely horrible.

"Maybe you should do what's best for all of us, and take your selfish attitude away from chase you obviously only want to fake this sister thing for clout." As soon as those words leave his mouth I am standing up pointing to him and telling him in a stern voice that I want to talk to him privately because this ass is getting on my damn nerves he just looks at me up and down before a scowl crosses his face he gets up follows me to the hall where I can feel the others eyes on me as we walk

Our movement come to a halt when they do I turn around the look of annoyance written clearly on his face "what's your problem with me and why do you think I'm lying?" As soon as I finish my sentence Rudy walks up to me he looks behind himself before he walks towards me I get a little bit nervous I stumble back while he continues walking forward he gets close enough I can smell the scent of his aftershave "I just wouldn't put it past you to lie princess" as soon as those words come out from his mouth I feel the anger bubble up inside of me i raise my hand but before it can connect with his cheek "watch it cupcake, you don't wanna mess with me" he says that so calmly it's like he's trying to scare me which he's gonna have to try a little harder than that, "don't touch me blondie , i will mess with whoever the hell i want to mess with" he smirks before leaning down to whisper in my ear , "your messing with fire, don't expect to not get burnt" I felt his breath fan my face before he stalks away towards the others leaving me stood there speechless, no one's ever had that affect on me before.

Get a grip Mackenzie your better than to let a guy leave you stunned, no matter how hot he is, scrap that i do not find him hot I find him arrogant and rude

Ughhh why is this happening to me.

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A/N
Guess who's backkkkkkk meeee I've been m.i.a for agessss but I'm back and ofc I had to leave this chapter on a cliffhanger 🤭let's just say the sexual tension is gonna be appearing in coming chapters will Mackenzie give into her desire for Rudy or will Rudy become jealous of a certain male friend Mackenzie hangs around with... yes that's a slight spoiler 🫣