Try To Fix Me [njh fanfiction AU]

Chapter 26

Jane's p.o.v

I kind of like Niall to be honest, and no, not in the like like way, just as a friend.

For now.

No but I don't know, we haven't hung out so much so yeah, he's a nice guy.

"So Jane, what do you wanna do today?" Niall asked me

"I don't really know, I mean we can just chill if you guys want that" I suggested.
I saw Ashton get surprised and looked towards Niall

"I told you so" Niall half shouted towards Ashton. I was so confused right now, so I shot them a confusing look. These guys have confused me more than ever today

"I think I love you" Ashton said with wide eyes.

"What" I laughed at him

"Well, so many girls just want to do so much stuff, like, go to the zoo? I don't know man but you're chill" he explained. Wow okay, I didn't think I was one of those 'chill girls' to be honest.

"Oh, well okay" I laughed. We walked into the messy living room where Ashton was sleeping at nights. You could really see that.

"So Ashton, who are you, what are you doing, why are you here?" I asked him. I know they met over twitter, but I mean, why? It's a little bit weird to be honest

"I'm Ashton" he answered the first question and I rolled my eyes, but with a smile. "Well I'm here because I'm visiting Niall - Jane you already know these stuff!" Ashton exclaimed loudly in the middle of the sentence.

"I mean like, twitter? How, why?" I directed the question to them both. I really wonder how they found eachother among the millions of users in twitter

"Well.." Niall started. "I guess we just liked the same bands and stuff, so I just followed Ashton and we started talking" Niall said, or more mumbled. He seemed kind of uncomfortabe with my question. I decided not to push it any further because I mean, I don't know him that well.

"Oh" I said turning towards Ashton who was just staring out to nowhere. "That's cool" I said again.

"Yeah, I've found a best mate so I'm happy for that" Niall said with a smile. It got so much more awkward by my question, I must have hit a sensetive topic there. We sat like that for a few minutes before Ashton spoke.

"Hey Jane, I'm sorry but can you go home?" I was a bit surprised by that question, and Ashton could clearly see that.

"I mean like, I need to talk to Niall"

"Now?" I asked him

"Yeah now" Ashton said

"Ashton what are you doing" Niall groaned. I was very confused. Wow. I was getting ready to stand up when Ashton spoke again. I saw Ashton look into Niall's eyes very seriously.

"I need to talk" he said slowly.

"I'll just go okay, it's fine Niall, I'll see you around" I said as I rushed out of the flat. Way to be wanted huh. I just laughed after a while, the situation is kind of funny really.

Niall's p.o.v

I don't understand what Ash is doing right now. Ashton slowly moved towards me.

"Ashton what are you doing? Seriously man" I laughed a little nervously.

I watched him as he slowly pulled my sleeves up. I dragged my arms away fast

"Ashton stop, what are you doing?" I asked him again. He is really weirding me out right now.

"I wanna look" he said

"Why? It's disgusting" I stated

His eyes snapped up to me as I said that

"Stop. It's not disgusting. Let me see" he said

He reached for my wrists and pulled the sleeves up completely. I didn't want to see his reaction so I closed my eyes. When Ashton stayed quiet I opened my eyes and I saw tears briming in his eyes.

"Don't cry Ashton, I'm fine" I lied

"You're not fine! Niall look at me" I looked up at him and I felt the tears in my eyes.

"You know this isn't working, right?" he asked me. I didn't answer as the tears started to roll down my face. Ashton pulled my sleeves down and wrapped me into a hug.

"Talk to me" he said

Ashton's p.o.v

I can't believe he thinks he deserves the pain. I watched his arms and I felt like throwing up. The pain inside of me was so unbareable. He's more than what he think he is, he deserves so much better.

I saw the tears rolling down Niall's face as he watched his own arm. I know how that feels so I pulled his sleeve down and hugged him. He needs to talk about it.

"Talk to me" I said to him.

Niall slowly pulled away and started to tell me how he felt.

"I feel worthless. I feel like everything is wrong and nobody wants me here, I know I have you but it's in my mind. I just feel like I don't need to be here. It's better to not be here, I don't know Ash, I just want to die. This -" he said and pointed to his arm "- this feels good. Physical pain is better than mental."

I know exactly what he means, but it's not working

"Niall, you're nothing what you say. You are a wonderful person that do deserve to be here, and if people would really get to know you for real, I know they would love you. I know what you mean with the pain. But once you're done with the razor, you feel both physical and mental health. It's not worth it Niall" I told him. I know what I say will not matter, because he will not believe it. He needs someone to prove it to him.

"I don't know" he sighed. He wiped away the tears and looked away from me.

"You need to tell this to someone eventually" I told him, hoping he would understand what I mean.

"But I have told you and Chappie" he said

"Yeah I know" I said. He knows what I mean, he just don't want to.

"Are you okay Ashton?" he asked me. Am I? Yeah. Better than I were before at least.

"Yeah I'm fine" I assured him.
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Niall's p.o.v

College, ugh. I wonder what Ash is doing to my flat.

I chuckled as I picture him sitting in my flat eating and screaming out lyrics.

I saw Jane walking so I caught up with her.

"Hey Jane" I greeted

"Hi Niall" she smiled. Her smile is so beautiful. God.

"I'm so sorry about the uh - the incident" I said apologetic

"It's okay, I'm sure it was important" she said. I just nodded. As we walked to class we were just joking around a bit and I fell to the floor, on my way down I hit my head in a bench. I screamed as I laughed and I heard Jane laugh.

"Help! I'm dying!" I scremed. She helped me up and laughed even more

"See! You're fine" she said with a wide smile

"I know I'm fine, I'm not just fine, I'm hot" I smirked

"Don't flatter yourself Horan" she laughed.

Jane is so cool.

"Hey, you wanna go out sometime? If it's not to fast forward" I asked her. She was pretending to think about if a long time.

"C'mon" I laughed at her

"Yeah, okay" she smiled

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A/N: HI GUISE IT'S NATHALIE. Sooo I don't know if this chapter is even okay, but like, I felt creative but it turned out worse than ever. BUT WHO CARES at least it's a update :D

Oh and guys if you have any questions to me or fatka, just ask because we'll answer ofc. BYE