dreams, fairytales, fantasies.

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i hit my drumsticks on the cafeteria table to the beat of the song as i bop my head up and down.

"she say 'i never wanna make you mad,"

"cuz."

"i just wanna make you proud'"

"cuz!"

"i say 'baby just make me cum,"

"CUZ!"

"then don't make a sound'"

"ANDREA!"

"im on tha-" i take off my headphones and look behind me.

"damn is that shit at full volume or somethin?" i roll my eyes at my cousin, gio.

she walks up to estebán who's sitting across from me on his phone. "beat it." she says while pointing her thumb backwards. he chuckles and and gives me a up nod before leaving.

"beat it." i mimick her. she smacks her lips, "shut up."

"ok but what was the point when you could've sat down next to me?" i point to the seat to my left.

"cause i wanna make sure that you're looking and listening to me when i talk to you. two things that you clearly struggle with."

i scoff and shift in my seat, "i don't struggle with that, i just don't pay attention to people i hate."

gio holds her hand to her heart dramatically, "one, that's offensive, two, you haven't been paying attention since seventh grade."

"bro, yes i have."

"oh really? so what were yall learning about in your last class?"

"well, when the barometric pressure reaches a certain temperature- shit i don't fuckin' know."

"that's what the fuck i thought. just clueless." she points at me, "how you got a big ass head and ain't nothin in it?"

"gio, what the fuck you want?"

she leans back in her chair and puts her hands up defensively, "damn i can't chill with my cuz for a lil bit?"

i stare at her with a straight face. "ok, ok. i just wanted to know... if you been gettin pussy lately."

i laugh at her dumbass question, cause why the fuck would you ask something like that? "and why the fuck would i be discussing my sex life with you?"

she puts her arms on the table and leans forward, "well, we not really discussing your sex life, im askin about it. i mean, ever since you and that brazilian chick-"

"emilia." i correct her.

she nods. "broke up, you been all bitchy and shit. like complaining about every thing, all the time. honestly i..."

i spot a girl in the distance behind gio talking with some of her friends and laughing. she has long curly hair, she's lightskin, and she got a lil fat ass. her smile is so damn attractive, damn she's fine as fuck.

the girl looks directly at me and we make eye contact. she waves at me so i lift my eyebrows and smirk in response.

"you need to-" gio cuts herself after she realizes im not paying attention. she does a full 360 in her chair and waves her fingers at the girl i was looking at.

¡maldito idiota!

the girl waves her fingers back and leaves with her friends, then gio turns back to me.

"well i guess i ain't gotta talk to you about gettin pussy no more."

"yo chill, me and that girl just made eye contact and im probably bout to go say wassup. that's it."

"you better say wassup. shit you always pussy out and make an excuse when i try to put you on with someone."

she imitates my voice, " 'i thought she was cute i ain't ready for allat', or, 'she's aight but i wouldn't fuck her', or, 'she not my type, she too yadda yadda yadda.' "

she slaps her hands on her thighs and stares at me with a "really?" look on her face.

i guess she was just talking about my ex the whole time i was staring at that girl, and how i've been since we broke up.

i'ma give a little rundown of what happened.

about a year ago, when i first joined this school, there was this guy, sebas, and he was dating this girl, jana, who happens to be my roommate. and sebas had previously dated emilia.

anyways, shit happens, like all the freshmen got kidnapped, which included me, for some "prove your talented enough to attend this school" bullshit. that ended up in flames. literally.

jana suspected it was sebas who was behind it so she searched his room, got caught, and they broke up.

whatever.

sebas got back with emilia, but the whole time they were dating, me and emilia had a secret relationship.

blah, blah, blah, finales come around, we made out on stage in front of everyone and jana exposed sebas for being behind the kidnapping, and co-running a secret society.

sophmore year comes around, which is currently, and emilia and i had a healthy relationship. until she decided to steal my song to convince the principal to renew her visa or some shit like that because she's a brazilian immigrant or whatever the fuck.

damn. gio was right, i haven't been paying attention since seventh grade.

anyways, it did work so she was able to stay, but i got upset cause she used my song without my permission. which is how as any normal person would've reacted, so i confessed to the principal that she plagiarized my work.

he gave her a superintendents suspension, which i never knew existed until then, but basically she got suspended for a month. originally, she was supposed to get expelled but i begged the principal not to.

immediately after he told her that she was suspended she broke up with me, all upset and shit.

i know.

she played ME and broke up with ME because SHE was HURT.

the fucking nerve that bitch had.

motherfucker, you played with MY feelings, I should've been the one breaking up with you because YOU HURT ME.

anyway.

she just got back two weeks ago and apologized to me, we did make up so we're friends at least.

we almost kissed but she said we shouldn't because "it'll hurt too much if we got back together", which makes sense even though i did kinda want her back.

yeah, i did want her back, but thats because i had a hard time letting go. i've learnt to let go now.

i come back from my thoughts. i shoot back at gio's sass, "yeah, yeah, whatever. shut yo ugly ass up. go masturbate or sum."

i stand up and grab my bag. she scoffs, "bitch, ugly where? i get hoes, unlike you."

"i get hoes too."

"hoes where? you ain't got none right now."

i wave her off, "nigga shut the fuck up, i'll see yo dumbass later." i begin to walk away.

"yeah aight!" she yells.

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i finally enter my room for the first time after class today.

remember how i said earlier that jana was my roommate last year? she still is, we kept the same roommates as last year, so it's me, jana, and my best friend, mj.

i set my bag down next to the table in our room and sit down. the bathroom door opens.

"andi?"

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song(s) played
Love Me - Lil Wayne, Drake, Future

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