mj comes from the bathroom with a comb in her hand and walks towards me.
i hum in response. "hm?"
"can i ask you a question?"
"sure, go for it." i motion for her to sit in the chair next to me.
she sits down and lets out a sigh with a long pause.
"how did you know you liked girls?"
she not foolin nobody.
"well," i sigh, "its not really something you know, rather something you feel. i don't really know, i guess i just realized that i started feeling attractions towards women that other women would usually feel towards men. but you know once you process it and accept it."
she nods her head and smiles. "how was accepting yourself and coming out like?"
"once i realized that i was sexually attracted to women i just accepted it. but i never came out because i felt like keeping it to myself because it is my business. its different for everyone though, not a lot of other lesbians are able to accept themselves as quickly as i was, because their worries could be from it distracting them from school, or discrimination, or how their family and friends would react. i accepted myself being a lesbian at 13 though so i wouldn't know."
"did your family ever find out?"
"yep. and that might be why my stepdad hates me so much. he was the first one to find out, he caught me having sex with a girl at home and he got super mad about it." i laugh.
"told my mom that i was a dyke but she was accepting, so for the most part my family is accepting of me. except for my stepdad of course."
"that's so cool andi. about how you were able to accept yourself so quickly and even now how you never let anyone step on you. how come you've never told me this before?"
"well you never asked. why are you asking anyways? you got your eye on someone?" i tease.
"mmmm." mj stands up. "thank you for sharing with me." she kisses me on my cheek before skipping out our dorm.
that's new. the only girls i could imagine her crushing on is jana, or me. mj is cute and all but i don't know if i would date her. maybe it's better off if she did get with a girl for some time after sebas had knocked her up.
she ended up getting an abortion but she was struggling to decide if she even wanted too because she feared it was against her religion, but we looked it up together, and there's nothing in the bible that goes against the idea of abortion nor agreeing with it.
she made the decision to go through with it because even if its not explicitly against christianity, she's still a highschool student.
i open my phone and scroll through instagram since i have some spare time before class.
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