TELEGRAM
< Drie Sanchez
9:12 PM
Drie:
Babe, don't be too hard on yourself
Di mo naman kasalanan na naospital si tita
It's not like you want it to happen
Emma:
Ewan ko drie
Parang wala nang magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko
Wala na ako direksyon noon tapos ngayong umuusad ako para na naman akong naliligaw
I don't even know what to do with my life anymore
Drie:
Em, my dear, everthing happens for a reason.
Everything will pass
Maybe you're feeling low and down right now pero I know na malalampasan mo rin lahat to
All these things are out of your control
Tita will be okay. Kuya will eventually calm down. Your father will understand. Aaron will figure things out. And Noah? I'm sure he'll open up. So please be patient with everything and let just life flows.
Face it head on
Wag ka masyado maramot sa sarili mo
Give yourself some break
Emma:
It's not easy
Especially when you feel like everything in your life is falling apart
Drie:
I know. Your feelings are valid.
I totally understand you.
But like I said there's an afterglow
Why don't you try to take small steps?
Like talk to someone you want?
Si Santi ba?
Emma:
Ayokong kausapin
Drie:
Wala na ba kayo?
Emma:
Wala naman kami
Di ko alam
I blocked him in all his soc meds
Drie:
Why?
I thought you're happy with him?
Emma:
Masaya nga
Pero baka hanggang doon lang kami
Life with him felt like a bubble
Tapos nong nagkaproblema, nagsunod-sunod na. Hindi man lang ako hinayaang huminga.
Tuwing binabalikan ko yung sa amin ni Noah unti-unti kong narerealize na ako pala talaga yung problema
I am complicated and toxic
Hindi sa pagpapakasad girl at panggagaslight ng sarili ah
Pero narealize ko recently na tama sila
Ginagawa ko ngang komplikado lahat
They want me to hear them out, so I should have listened.
They wanted me to see, so I should have looked.
Pero matigas ang ulo ko
Mataas din siguro ang pride
Mana lang kay mama hahaha
Drie:
Huhu
You're being hard on yourself na naman :(
What's your plan with Santi?
Emma:
I still don't know
Ang gulo gulo
I want to be there for him. I want him to open up. I want to embrace him.
Pero hindi niya ako hinahayaan
And I'm just too insecure knowing na si Criselda lang ang nakakaintindi sa kanya.
Actually, I like her. She's kind. She's sweet. She's perfect. Hindi naman ako selosa pero naiinis ako na hindi ako yung taong nandyan para damayan siya.
Drie:
Em, my love, while I do understand your feelings, I just want to say that maybe it's not easy for him to open up too. Dahil hindi pwedeng pilitin ang taong hindi pa handa. Na kahit ano pang pagkukumbinsi at pag-aassure mo sa kanya, hinding-hindi talaga mabuksan ang puso niya. Idk, maybe it doesn't heal yet. Or maybe even he doesn't know how to deal with his feelings? Or maybe he's afraid of the possibility of what might happen when he opens up to you? Or maybe it's not the right time yet? Remember Mesha and Thirdie's breakup? She didn't tell us what happened, not because she didn't want to. But because she's not ready, And she's considerate of our friendship with Thirdie. She could have told us dahil alam naman niyang siya ang papanigan natin. It was the easier option. Pero she didn't... because she thought that it's not the right time yet. Like you and Santi's situation, my love... there's bunch and bunch of maybes and what ifs and possibilities. Pero what I'm sure of... is that both your feelings are genuine. Nakikita ko yung saya at spark eh. I'm not saying that you need to be more patient with him... what I want is for you to be patient with yourself. Don't rush your feelings. Or control your emotions, especially when it comes to him. Don't make yourself feel obliged that you need to be that one he leans on.
Emma:
Drie... you're right.
It's just that I feel shitty right now. Alam ko naman na ako ang problema. I could have been more patient. I could have been more understanding. I could have love him better. Kahit na hindi pa siya handa sabihin, he's willing to to tell me. Grabe, ganon niya ako kagusto. And here I am... so fucked up with everything that's happening to me. My life's in chaos. I'm lost. I have no direction. Gusto kong magsimula pero di ko alam kung saan at paano. How do I even love him?
Drie:
Love, pano mo siya mamahalin kung hindi mo kayang mahalin sarili mo? I know everything feels difficult right now. Pero like what I said earlier... take small steps. You need to embrace yourself first before you can embrace him, his troubles, and his love. You need to love yourself first before you can love him fully. Walang pamimilit. Walang hesitations. Hindi ka makakausad kung hindi ka humahakbang. I'm here, Emma. We are here for you. Please take some time to rest... and think of yourself.
Emma:
I'll try
Pero shit
Ang hirap pala na walang direksyon
You don't even know how to start
Pero thank you drixie
I know I need to take some rest
And do some self-reflect
Susubukan kong hindi masyadong mag-overthink
I'll try to find some comfort and peace with myself
I'll try to find something to do na magiging masaya ako
Something I can do to be able to walk again and continue
Thank you talaga drixie
You never judge me
Drie:
I will never, my love.
You're welcome 🫶
I'm always here for you.
Remember that.
Call me when you need me.
I'll always answer 😚
Emma:
Message kita when I find something new
Drie:
Okay, love. Message me when you feel like it.
Looking forward to your healing.
( ♥️ )
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