Downpour✔️

|5| I decide

"I was scared of choosing but now I see more clearer. I believe that my happiness can't happen if I choose wrong so I need to mak the decision that will heal me and make me happy again...this is my second chance at finding happiness and I need to take it"

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I can do this....

I hold tightly onto my umbrella as the rain pours down hard on this day. I thought the rainy weather would only last for 2 days but here on the fourth day it feels like it was waiting for this day.

The front door that is too familiar is a glaring sight and I can't help but grip even tighter on the umbrella taking in deep breaths as I look up coming in sight of the white umbrella I still haven't returned. It reassures me of why I am here following the silent promises I made that night of my choice and is the reason why I am standing in front of Jungkook's house on my way to face it all again.

This is it...this is the time...

I hold my breath as I lift my hand and knock my fist against the wood shifting on my feet as I just wait for someone to come out. I've texted that I'm coming over not saying anything else besides that but I know one of them needs to be here.

The seconds drag on and I fight the urge to run away as the time grows longer but finally after what feels like an eternity the door opens making my eyes look up sharply until I see purple hair greeting me and doe eyes that go wide at the sight of me.

Seeing Jungkook makes a sharp pang go through my heart at the memories of the younger that I cherished but after the last 2 and a half weeks I think of the side that was obviously chosen which makes sense with who his best friend was but I know my place in his life.

"Hi Jungkook-ah" I greet with a polite smile but instead of greeting back I see his expression twists into a pained expression making me frown as his eyes become glossy.

"Rina-Noona...I..." He cuts off his own sentence as he bows his head hiding his face away before speaking again.

"I'm so sorry....I'm so sorry for not supporting you...I already hate what he did to you and I'm sorry I didn't contact you but I felt guilty and...I'm sorry Noona if I knew before I would have told you...I'm really sorry" I swallow harshly as I press my lips together taking in a deep breath.

His shoulders shake and I let out a long breath before closing my umbrella and stepping inside closer to him putting my hands on his shoulders pulling up before pulling him into a hug rubbing his back as sadness washes over me once again.

It seems as if he is finally allowing himself to cry and it pains my heart seeing someone I formed a bond with during the years looking so sorry. It is easy for me to hug him as I know he is telling the truth and he wasn't the one who had hurt me even if his absense had hurt me too.

I'm here to close all chapters here to start new ones...so I need to close this chapter too to start the next one with him

"I forgive you Kook-ah...I don't blame you for his actions, you weren't there I know and you only helped your best friend which is understandable. I am still hurt but...if you give me time maybe..."

Maybe we can rebuild our friendship

I leave the words unsaid as we both pull back from the hug and he wipes his tears away before giving me a shaky smile.

"Of course Noona, take all the time please" I smile at him and pat his head feeling slightly lighter even if I still haven't faced the biggest reason why I am here. My smile falters at the thought and I take in a deep breath before looking behind him almost jumping at the sight of the man that haunted my dreams for too long.