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raveen in denial

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RAVEEN'S POV ✨✨✨✨

I sat in my room, feeling completely void of emotion. I feel bad for what I did to Maya, but I feel even worse… fuck, what's wrong with me? I got off my bed and stepped into the shower. I paused to do my facial routine, staring at myself in the mirror, and couldn't understand why I'm acting like I like her. I mean, we literally have nothing in common… so why am I acting like a stupid fucking simp?

I need to get this shit over and done with. Most of the time when I get like this, it's because I just want to fuck, or maybe I love the chase. But with Maya… she makes the chase interesting. But the thing is... I'm going to take the lead on this one. No bitch will make me lose at my own game.

"You're good?" I heard Aaron knock while unlocking my door.

"Lensia's coming in a bit. I asked her to pick up some stuff. Need anything?"

"Tell her to bring one of those chocolate balls from the gas station," I yelled as I walked out of the bathroom, towel dabbing my moist face.

"Yeah, sure. Got that?" he said, talking into his phone, heading downstairs. I actually missed being in my room… just my “me” vibes. And this shawrryyy missed weed and solo vibes. I jumped onto the bed and pulled out my phone to text June.

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Raveen
Hi... it's Raveen. We met at the minimart a few days ago...

June🪐
Hi, bub. Took your precious time, I see… but anyway, how are you?

Raveen
Been aight, so wyd tomorrow?

June🪐
Wow😂 don't waste time ¿ huh?

Raveen
Well... c'mon... so where can I pick you tomorrow?

June🪐
Well, I got school, so maybe after...

Raveen
Aight bet. Text me your school's Addy 😌

June🪐
School finishes at 6, so don't be late. Here's the Addy 33****....

Raveen
Aight lemme check it out... Wow, you're in a rich people's school 😂 Should've known 😂 But anyways, see you tomorrow, Porsche Barbie😂

June🪐
Stfu, you bimbo...😂🥱

Raveen
Wtf, who even says bimbo? What's a bimbo though?🙈

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Can't believe this dumb bitch left me on read… anyway, it's late. I need to sleep; I have an early day tomorrow.

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I lazily blinked a few times, turning off the alarm, groaning at the fact that I actually hated waking up in the morning.

Omfffggg…

I wonder if Maya will be in school today, I thought, walking over to my blinds and slightly opening them.

Aargghhh...

Why is it so bright outside? Omfgg... I groaned, throwing my head back as I made my way to the bathroom.

I just stood under the shower, letting the warm water run through my hair. It felt nice, relaxed my head, my muscles, and eventually, I started to drift off in my own shower thoughts… deep in my mind.

You know, it actually doesn't make any sense… the fact that Maya saw me with another girl and I didn't stop. Why didn't I stop though? Like… I know I wanted to, but I couldn't. I don't know, she does these fucking things that piss me off so bad, and she doesn't even know.

I came back to reality when I heard my alarm ring. I set alarms for every hour so I wouldn't lose track of time when getting ready. I never really liked school, but that didn’t mean I didn’t like getting there early and avoiding the stares from thirsty shawrryyys, and the grudge-holding looks from dumbass guys who think I'm stealing their bitches who don't even have a brain cell. But anyway, time to dress up and feel rebellious.

So, I threw on a midnight blue tank top covered by a grey flannel jacket, a pair of jade denim jeans, and of course, the cherry on top: I decided to rock my black crocs because why not? They were comfy, and I really needed that.

I left the house and kitchen in the best condition I could, since I was starting to get late. I grabbed my car keys from the kitchen, hopped in, and drove off. When I got to the school parking lot, I felt a random wave of anxiety and that sinking feeling in your gut when you're unsure if you like someone or not. I lit a blunt, y’know, to get me right with the crowd. Did a little high-makeup look, something cute but not too much.

I took a few deep breaths and walked out of my car, making my way to Gate B, the one that led to the hallway, praying I wouldn’t run into Maya or Katie. Fuck, anxiety was kicking in… omg, I feel people looking at me. I see everyone's eyes on me… my breathing… relax… relax... it's okay... I’m okay...

Then wait… is that Maya? Fuck… she looks so good with her new hair and that pink mini dress... mhhmm... I'd wanna tear it up. She was smiling at Katie, waving her hands up, making her dress lift just past her thighs. I couldn't help but smirk and lick my lips, because oouu, but then this bitch let someone else touch her… the nerve.

I had three classes today, and one of them was with Maya. Fuck!

"Geez, mahn!" I groaned, pushing Richie away from me.

"I get you love me, but back the fuck up, mahn," I said, putting my hand in front of him, backing away slowly into the next room.

"I thought something happened to you..." He started, "...like at the party. I heard you fought someone because of Maya... and some shit," he said, looking confused.

"Yeah, well, don't believe anything you hear," I said, waving my hand in dismissal and taking my seat. It wasn’t long after that Maya and Katie walked in. I eyed Maya until she took a seat in front of me, Katie to the right. Katie looked good too, in vintage shorts and a weird green bubble top.

I turned around to look for Riley or Richie before pulling out my phone and texting them in the group.

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Riley 😻
Yesterday 9:47 PM
Dude, wtf are you?
I've seen Maya with someone...
That's really not you 🥲🥲
Did you guys fight🫠?

Richie 😎
Dude, who the fuck did you kick ass?🤣
You good?

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TODAY...

Raveen 🐮
B. Hey pervs… so you wanna ditch?

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Riley 😻
Wow😒 look who decided to show up.

Richie 😎
Yeah, for food and weed, right? 😂

Riley 😻
Really?... you leave us on read then come up with ditching?
Yeah, I’m down 😂😂

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Raveen 🐮
Bitch, don't start with me 😂🥱
Riley, you’re just hungry, stfu 😂😌🍪
Aight, imma hit you up after this.
I need to talk to my baby 😌😂

Riley 😻
Here we go again 😒🥱
Raveen, don’t fuck this up.

Richie 😎
Aauuggghhaaaaaa✋

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... Sometimes I think Richie has some missing brain cells, because wtf does he even type? Omfg.