Memories

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Tristian 

There is something about Emily that reminds me of her when she left me here all alone in my bed. I was wondering why she left me, but I guess I am the type of person who can be flaky as well. 

Every time I tried to get her out of my mind, she creeps back. Tucker was up and awake, so I told him I would make him so breakfast. I made him some chocolate pancakes with some strawberries decorated around it. I can tell Tucker really loved the pancakes, so I left him in the kitchen to check up on Emily. I knock on her door, and she didn't respond until I peek my head through the door seeing Emily sleeping.

She was muttering some words in her sleep.'' I wanted to tell you that I am pregnant.'' 

''What do you mean?'' I was curious to know what her answer was going to be. She begins to rant how she had one of the best nightstands with this guy who turns out to be her bodyguard and she doesn't know how to mention how to let him know about his own child. 

I can't believe she is mentioning this in her sleep. I was so shocked that she was pregnant, and she didn't try to find me after that night. I couldn't stop thinking about her from that moment I saw her till the moment she walks out of my life. For me to know that she has seen her before only to find out that she has been on tv as a figure skater. 

I don't know why she didn't try to find me to let me know I have responsibility. I may have been an asshole in past, but I would have tried to be there for my child if I know. I needed some time to myself, so I left for a while to think things through. I went to see a friend to let him know I found her and my kid. When I got my friend's house Jake, he was really shocked to see me here.

He realized I was here for a reason, so he sat down as I told him that I found the woman of my dreams. He was happy for me, but he knew there was a but for my reason when I told him that she is a mother. The kid happens to be mine ever since we shared that spontaneous night. Jake replies that this was my chance once again to have her back into my life. I shouldn't mess this up no matter what, but it should be up to the both of us wanting to be a family. Jake is right; this was my chance to right the wrongs I have done in my life, also I was given a second chance. 

I went back to see if she was awake to make sure she can make it in for practice. The moment I walk into the door she slaps me across my face asking me where have I been? I couldn't believe she woke up and the only thing she thought of was slapping me across my face. I can tell she hasn't taken her meds because she is panicking, so I went to find Tucker. Tucker happens to be locking himself into his room waiting for his mom to calm down. ''Stay in there, Tucker.'' I reassure him that he will be safe soon when I calm down Emily. I went downstairs to talk her down as I tried to help her take her meds. 

''I'M CALM!'' She is panicking while she is angry at me. She begins throwing things at me. I knew I needed to make sure I don't get hit on the head with the things she was throwing at me. 

''I'm never usually like this.'' She is hitting her head as she thinks to herself wondering why she like this is. She can't be acting like this when she is a mother, but she didn't know her mother would pass this down to her. I held her telling her she has a son in the room who is afraid of her because she is not herself at this point. She can feel the hurt she is putting upon her child because she knew one day he would be afraid of her. She broke down to the ground as I held her until she finally took the pills. I let her calm down in my arms as she fell asleep in my arms, so I pick her up bridal style taking her back to her bed to sleep it off. 

When I lay her down on the bed, I went to find Tucker in his room to let him know that his mother is sleeping, and he can come out. He came out making sure that his mother is asleep because sometimes people think she is sleeping when she is not. I showed him that she is sleeping because there was something I needed to tell him. We went to the kitchen to sit down to have a talk with one another. I sat him down asking him about his father where he mention he doesn't know anything that much about his father. I guess Emily never told him anything about his father. I ask him if he would love to know who his father is when he replies he would love to. 

Tucker really wants to know who his father is because he heard some of his classmates mentioning that a boy needs his father. Even his own grandma mention to his mom that he needs to know his father. I wanted to tell him that I'm his father, but I wanted to run through this to Emily first. I told Tucker that one day he will meet his father where he got so excited. Carol walks through the door as Tucker ran to her to get a hug from his grandmother. I went to check up on Emily where she happens to be not in her bed. She was walking out of the bathroom as she watches me look for her everywhere in the room. 

''I'm alright.'' She chuckles. I was relieving when she was smiling and laughing at me for looking for her. I don't know what was going on with my emotions, but they were all over the place. She asks me for Tucker's whereabouts as she hears the commotion downstairs with Tucker and Carol. She didn't know her mother wasn't home early in the morning, but it make sense because the house was really quiet. 

Emily walks over towards me as my heart beats so fast with fear and excitement. She put her hand on my head as she run her fingers through my hair. I was breathing so hard, but I didn't want her to hear because she will see that I am nervous. ''You know, you're so beautiful.'' She says. In that moment my limbs went frozen except for my lips wanting for her to kiss me. God, I really sound like a girl explaining how she makes me feel. 

''Emily.'' I said softly. 

''Tristian.'' She says softly. I wanted to kiss her, but my limbs were frozen and the only thing I could move is my lips. I see her reaching up to my lips as she leans in slowly brushing up her lips on mines.  ''Mhmm.'' She turns around which cause my limbs to be unfrozen as I grab her neck bashing her lips upon mines as we share this sensitive passionate kiss. She pushes me to the wall as she whispers to me,'' I thought you didn't want to fuck me.'' 

''Who says I didn't want to.'' I replied back.