the jock and the nerd are DATING!?!?!

chap 17

Benny POV: 

I scrambled back, panic flooding my veins. I can't let this happen. Not again. I can't have anything happen anymore. My breath hitched as I shot up fast, my body moving before my mind caught up. I ran—just ran straight out of his door. Alex yelled after me, telling me to stop, to turn back, but all I could hear was this horrible ringing in my ears. His voice—the one I can never escape—echoed through my mind, layering over everything like a suffocating fog: "Whore." "Worthless.""Ungrateful." "Useless." "Rude."

I charged down the hall, my heart racing as if it could burst from my chest, down the stairs with one thought blaring louder than the ringing—I can make it. I can get out. I have to get out. I saw the front door. I was so close, my fingers barely grazed the cold metal of the doorknob before I felt it—a sharp tug. My shirt yanked violently against my throat, cutting off my breath. My body was ripped backward like a ragdoll.

NO, NO, NO!

I was so close. He's going to be furious. Why did I run? What was I thinking? He's going to kill me this time. For sure.

Alex had grabbed my arm, his other fist still holding onto the collar of my shirt. Without a word, he started dragging me back up the stairs. My feet stumbled, my legs weak as the adrenaline seeped out of my muscles, leaving me helpless.

"Good thing my parents aren't home. You would've freaked them out," Alex muttered, as if that was all that mattered right now.

My life flashed before my eyes in bits and pieces. What would my mom think? Did she even notice I'm gone? Would she even care? She was always so busy, too wrapped up in her own world to see mine crumbling.

Alex POV: 

I really hope Benny's gonna be okay. The look on his face was pure terror—like he wasn't even here. My parents weren't home, and honestly, I was glad. They would've just made things worse with their constant hovering and endless questions, hugging him like some lost puppy. That's the last thing he needs right now.

When we got back to my room, I saw him shaking. Shit, he's probably freezing. It's still pretty early, and mornings can be cold. I headed over to the bed, rubbing the back of my neck, awkwardly glancing at him. Was he crying?

"Benny, stop it," I said, trying to keep my voice calm. "I know it's cold, but I wanna sleep more. C'mon, just hop in and let's warm up, okay?"

Benny POV: 

"...let's warm up, okay?"

What the fuck.

Why is he acting like everything's normal? Like none of this matters?

It's not even that cold, but I was too terrified to argue. My body was still shaking, but I couldn't tell if it was from fear or exhaustion. All I knew was that my limbs felt too heavy, too weak to fight anymore. I crawled into the bed, curling up next to him, my head pressed against his chest. His heartbeat was steady, almost soothing. The warmth of his body... it didn't make sense. But it was enough to pull me out of the haze, just for a moment.

Maybe it was the adrenaline wearing off, or maybe it was something else, but suddenly, the weight of everything just felt so distant. My eyes fluttered shut, and in this moment of strange warmth and calm, all I knew was that I was so tired.

Alex POV:

Almost instantly after getting in bed, Benny was out like a light. His breathing slowed, his body finally relaxing against mine. I could feel his weight, the tension slowly draining out of him. For the first time in what felt like forever, he looked... peaceful.

I stayed awake a little longer, my eyes tracing the first light of the sunrise as it painted the sky outside my window. The house was quiet, and for once, my mind wasn't racing.

As the warmth of sleep began pulling me under, I realized something: I could get used to this.

This calm. This stillness. Him, safe beside me.

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Well hello there!! 

Its been a tiny bit of time huh? jk idk if this chapter is any good but I am hoping its better then some earlier chapters. I saw a comment about this book being 4 years old and my soul like left my body, I have log in wattpad in a loooong time and I had like 100 notifications and I was like woah people like my shitty 7th grade writing I made with my old best friend. I do hope you enjoy this chatper but it only took 20 mins so its not perfect and I gotta be honest I probaly wont update for a while again unless I fall bak in love with this story. 

I hope your all doing well and have a good day or night or whatever the hell your doing.

- author