On My Grind

Did it for you Ramon.

My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news
Its like I never knew how much I could lose
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real,

But Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel
Tears fall from my eyes,

I can barely see

When your heart stop, feels like your sould died with me
But my heart tells me that my bruddah will always be with me
Ramon I love you, Rest in peace.

I got out the booth wiping my tears, I hate to admit it but ive been crying hella these days. Its been five days seen my brother died word must of got around that me and the mandem? Mandem. It don't even sound right without Ramon being here, but yeah words gone out that were looking for these paigons that did it, and they must of breezed. Everyone knows were the gully squa and it aint even no gang shit, not anymore. "You itye?" Saeed questioned me

"im cutting. Send me dat doe." I said whilst putting my jacket on. I stormed out reaching for my rizla and weed.

I pulled up infront of my block, when I got upstairs to my door I was surprised to see her standing there, "What do you want?" I blew out still holding my spilff in-between my fingers, "You don't have to make infront me you know." She said, she walked over to me and I hugged her, we clung onto eachother "I know your hurting," she told me

I stood up straight, "Im gonna kill 'em." I gritted through my teeth

"Your not" she held my wrist firmly

"I am I don't care."

"Gimmie your keys." She told me, I got them out my pocket and gave it to her. She firmly led me in and we went up to my room, I sat down on my bed my legs wide and carried on with my zoot. Ria began to undress i was baffled, I bit my bottom lip as less clothes covered her body. "Ria I aint even in the mood to beat." I told her

"I don't care, just let me please you." She said seductively into my ear, se sat on my lip kissing up my neck, she took my spilff and put it to the side and allowed my hands to roam around her temple, we began to kiss roughly whilst I squeezed at her bum, Ria always said she hated the thought of giving brain so I knew she had love for me when she pulled down my boxers and sucked on my member like say it was it was some sweet strawberry, she slowly climed on my fully harden member, I slowly went into her listening to her small whimpers fill the room, she pulled onto the sheets gritting her teeth, she began to get used to my fast pace and began to ride me, "More" she moaned, it was like I was giving her all my struggle all my stress through sex, she leaned into me more which meant I was deep into her, all the while her breast were jumping up and down on my chest, I slowly went down still doing my ting and sucked on one, her eye's rolled to the back of her head as she bit her bottom lip, "Don't think about stopping" she demanded I carried on with my pace till doing my ting, "Its itye b, let it go." I told her, she instantly let her high take over her, then went back to scratching at my back with them long nails of hers, calling out her name as I re entered her even deeper than before, "Im about to-" I pulled out and laid on my back, she crept up on me pulling the cover on us "I love you" she said breathlessly, I grabbed for my joint.

"You okay?" she asked me

I took another pull of this joint before answering her "Why do you keep asking me that."
"Because- you don't have to act like your all hard infront of me, I know your hurting in here Stef" she said sitting up pointing to my heart, "I aint no battyman to be crying out loud, yeah you know me but that how far as it goes. You dont know what goes in up in here" I said tapping my forehead

"You try to block it out by caring for everybody else protecting everybody else, keeping up this that you put up that your-"
"You know I deaded a man" I blurted out