On My Grind

Changes

Couple months later.

"I think they'll be a good family for him Stefan, They are Christian I mean proper. The dad has a good job- Stefan are you even listening"
"Huh?"

"I said I think they will be a good family for the baby."

"Oh," I looked at the paper briefly before getting back into my thoughts "Yeah their carm."

"carm, Carm is not good enough for your nephew future parents."
You know them ones when your thinking so much, too much that your not even paying to anything else, and it didn't help that I just billed one up and was roasting to get a pull, but this one was here, to much has been going on, I need to tell you lot. I put the spilff behind my ear and left. I havent got on this on long, but whenever I needed to clear my mind it seemed like the right thing to hop on, as I rode my bike Inhaled some herbs, the harsh wind hit my face and I became light headed. So who and what should I start with? Ria, after her and what she done, we havent had much contact not that I want any anyways, ive learnt that the ones you love the most and care for are the ones that hurt you and on to be truthful, on a realist ting it does, I understand I have another youte on the way which is shocking to me, and I know im gonna have to speak to her sooner or later but it just- its- I cant even explain it. I cant sit here and tell yous lot that I hate her and call her ever name under the sun cah I don't and you man know im not like that, im a humble guy-..... but when I see youtes like this makes me wanna do bad things, I hoped off my ped ambushing this dumb guy "What was you telling my sister?" I had this neeky guy by his neck on the wall, he was shrugging for me to get off but I weren't gonna let go "Let go blud, d'you know my brother?"

"I dont care who you brother is, but your gonna know who I am, tell me why  I shouldn't do you one right here right now, one blow im sure I'll dead you."
The look in his eye's slowly changed, and I could tell he was becoming fearful "Don't you know bout me? I was in YOT for almost all my teenage years, so are you sure you wanna be chatting shit to my sister?"
"I- it – we-"
"Butbutbutbut- Shutup with all dat"
"Gimmie one reason why I should dead you?"
"Cah- it"
"Not valid." I said slapping him hard in the face

He stuttered making me chuckle with a cheeky grin on my face, it was just a coupleminutes ago he was talking the hardest, now he's standing here like a pussy boy.

"What, is lickle man lost for words? Listen and listen hard cah I only tell it once, fuck about once, amma- Narh, I wont dead you, I'll get my Yg's to sort out your legs next time you act up, you'll be wheeling around for the rest of your life, if you carry on acting as if your hard towards my sister, You owe me Three bills. I want that by the end of this week."
"Three-Three bills? For what"
"You know how much shit ive brought for your son? And Three bills aint even the half of it make, if you don't get out of my sight amma turn it into 4." I let him go of my grip and kicked him hard as he went off "And I probably tax your brother aswell mate!" I laughed, jumping back on my ped, arhh look now my spilff's gone flat. But as I was saying things are changing for me, another thing ive noticed is that when I go through hardship that is when I make good music, it even resulted to Gyaldem Choice being in TOP TEN. Aside from that I know Tiana and Femi are fucking about, I clocked it Tayshan-Marie's christening, but you already know me, im a humble guy so amma just wait till I catch them in the act init. To think my day one Donny was ruin our friendship over a yatt who happens to be my babymum was bizarre, donnies like that confuse me, cah their the first to show their face up in your music video's asking them to shout you out on insta and all of that, anyways im just taking it all in, as long as my music is good, im good. "Arwh lemme ride that!" Tobi shouted as he saw me riding into the front bit of the block "Tobi Your actually a neek" I laughed "You and your lil squa."

"Sbizzy don't move like that." Joseph one of his bredrins said

"Why you calling me dat?" I laughed

"I know you got some weed for man to shot blud."
"Yeah init im all about my ami." One other said, I was creasing.

"Have you got anything for us to shot like?" Joseph asked

"Yeah" the other one agreed "Its all about quick, money how do you make quick money"
"You really want me to tell you man?"

"YEAH" they all said including Tobi, they gathered around me like say I was about to share some deadly secret "Go to school, Read your books-"

"Arwhhhhhh!" They all cut me off making me crease. I got off my ped and gave it to Tobi, Joseph got on the front and the other at the back "Anyhow you lose or someone nicks it don't come back to yard uno."
"I wont!" he said before riding off "INABIT MY YOUNGER!" Joseph shouted as they rode off making me laugh. I approached my car digging into my pockey for my keys, I unlocked the door, and opened it only to be pushed  back by someone, they tried to escape but I grab whoever it was and stuck them to the wall "What the fuck?" I took off his hoodie to see this mixraced youte, he was the sons of one of the nitty's I used to feed when I used to be about that. "So many man wanna try me today man, what isit?"

"I- I"

"And bare of you man are always stuttering"
"I just needed somewhere to sleep."

"My whip aint your joints, do hear me?"
"Yes" he said quietly, i kissed my teeth looking at him with the side of my eye this youte was bummy, i felt it for him even though he violated me,"I understand where your coming from but this aint the way you go about it, get your money up.

"How? No one trust me no one-"

I opened my car door and sat in my passenger seat opening up the little pocket ting, I grabbed it and passed to him "Go on make some profit, off that, a smart youte would shot that get money buy more. Use your mind, you got to on these roads."

"Safe, yeah, Safe."

"Ay," he stopped

"If I find you in mans car again-"
"Im pissed." He said.

"You already know" I got into the front seat and drove off.

Tiana's

"I knew you and Ria were gonna break up-"
"Shutup Tiana, just Shutup init, better not be getting any ideas."
"but I knew it"
"But she's having my youte so what's next ? The score is one one now I init, if games are all your gonna be doing all you life then I don't want you around my daughter, my life aint a game and I don't want-"
"She's pregnant for you?"
"She's Six months Pregnant for man Tiana, Aint gonna be the only baby mum I got how do you feel?"
"Your not funny." She said

"But narh that's how it is for you doe, its all a game. When you gonna realise that I don't want you, I never well blud, and im telling you real now so stop revolving your actions around me cah its never gonna be life that, your just another girl I got pregnant, you need to know."

She stormed out her room in a state, I looked into the cot which Tayshan-Marie was sleeping in and kissed her goodbye, I cant stay here for long not with Tiana bickering in my ear. So many changes are happening and its kind of scaring me, im gonna be a father to another baby soon and that scares me, I hardly get to see Tayshan-Marie so how about another one? My little sister is going through a pregnancy that she is going to have to give up for adoption, my family is falling apart, love ones have hurt me the most but its nothing,  Ibiza tomorrow, forever on my grind.

Changingi dont like these changes

seeing diffrent faces

has become so faded

lately and i wonder

sometimes i even try 

whenmy efforts dont even seem

rated just wasted  - OG NICKI

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