On My Grind

My special visit

Its been couple weeks from that day. I hadn't been let out because of the weed they found, don't blame me guys you know your boy is forever on his grind no matter what circumstances, that's how it goes. My mum cussed me off not forgetting Ria and a couple Auntie's. I find it madness how I was so close on getting out having me freedom again and then it just stopped, I was back at square one. They stopped my visitation, havent seen my baby girl in Three weeks and I made sure once I got inside I would see her at least once a week so it was foreign to me like at this rate Tay will forget me and im not having that so when I heard my name on the list for visits I was surprised. I got off the dumbbell bed and put the dumbbell to the side, "CHOP CHOP sunshine not everyday people wanna see you black ugly face." The guard told me
"I'll swing for you uno, fucking racist pig"
"I aint racist im just honest"
"And dese times your daughter Lucy, was on mans dick before I ended up in this bitch"
"Not my Lucy."
"Large birth mark on her thigh geezer."
"Get ere!" he grabbed for me but I got in the line on time and it got moving, fucking asshole. It seems like my baby has grown every time I see her, she had her head laid back into her mothers chest sucking her dummy, she's forever with that ting. Her chubby cheeks were rosy pink and her brown big eye's brightened up when she saw me she removed her dummy and held her hands out, My girls seven months now and she's a little chatterbox too, I picked her up and held her tight, and threw her up in the air in the air only for her to giggle from the top of her lungs, I kissed her repeatedly making her squirm she I hit my head repeatedly also making me chuckle "Tay blud, what you saying?" I asked her sitting down "Did you miss me?" I asked her, she gave me a wet kiss with her bright pink lips which answered my question, "You know I love you Tay" I said putting her on the table so she could sit down

"So I don't get a hello?" Tiana asked

I looked up at her over Tay and looked back at Tay.

"I see how it is?"
"What? Do you want a kiss is that it, cah I done told you we aint like that no more"
"But-"

"Don't tark, Shutup."
" Are-"
"You aint about to mess up my visit with my daughter, So seckle."
she huffed rolling her eye's "Whatever."
I carried on Playing with Tay, I took her to the little play area and learnt that my baby had grown so much, she' so cute aswell I love her more than anything In this world. When we got back to the seat she laid her head into my chest making me smile "Aww, I dun told you you've missed daddy you just wanna make"
with that she scratched me making Tiana laugh, her nails were long uno

"Don't you cut my girls nails?" I asked examing them
"What you tryna say? Im a bad mum"
"Lets not even get to into that chat."
"So has your girl come to see you since you've been in here?"
"You always gotta start don't you?"
"Im just asking."
I chuckled at her

"What?" she smiled

"Its nuttin"
"I hate when you do that"
"And I hate when you call feds on man"
that silenced her

Tay craved for my attention, daddy's girl, I popped the dummy in and out her month making her moan, "Don't do that" Tiana laughed, Tay'Shan-Marie began to cry so I popped it back in, she still fidgeted around and I didn't know what to do, "Give her here." Tiana said once her cries became louder.

"Aww bubs." She said rocking her

"Give her her bottle or something."

"They didn't allow me to bring her baby bag in here, were gonna have to go."
"Stay ten more minutes." I asked standing up

"Im sorry Stef."

"Promise me when Im out im gonna be able to see her properly thought,"
"We'll see"

"What do you mean we'll see?"
"Adeyemi" a guard said walking towards me

I kissed my teeth shoving past him to my daughter, I kissed her on the cheek before they left and was escorted to my cell, I cant do this shit no more.