oh noes

Chapter 12

I wake up to see…the fox’s snarling face. And I also jump away from it like a wuss.

Oh, for the love of- Nevermind. That’s my fault for putting it there…I sigh. Well…guess I should move it away before I forget to do it later.

I reach for the fox and push it away. Honestly…why did I think this was a good idea? I should be dropping it off a cliff or something just in case it suddenly comes back to life to try and kill me, for hell’s sake…

I stare at the floor for a little bit before reaching into my bag and grabbing a couple fruit pieces. Hfff…I know I said searching around the town would be a waste of time, but it’s not like I’ve got anything better to do…

I shoulder my bag and stretch as I leave the tent and begin to head towards town. I wonder what the crew is up to? Looks like it’ll be noon in a couple of hours…I guess they’d be pretty busy?

I wonder if they found that woman’s kid yet. Or, if they didn’t, I hope they at least found some sort of clue that’ll be really helpful. And…I hope the package didn’t get them into any trouble. It probably shouldn’t, but…who knows? Maybe there was illegal stuff in there.

Now that I think about it…does Mayrill look like Falt? Mayrill is about as important as Falt, so…I imagine it’d be pretty advanced over there, too. Although…I wonder what type of buildings it would have?

I wonder if the other continents are ahead, too. Or at least, more advanced than they were before the Calamity. I’ve heard that they’re all changing pretty quick, but…who knows how they’re changing? If anything, they could just be rebuilding their stuff to look just like they were before.

…I wonder too much.

I should be thinking about this stuff after I figure out my life…

…Maybe I’ll become a history person or something like that someday. The idea seems boring and fascinating at the same time…like I couldn’t stand the idea of having to look over book after book, but I’d also love the idea of learning about new stuff.

I guess that’s how I’m treating this entire searching thing right now? I can’t stand the thought of having to search everything, but I also wanna know who I was…

…Heh. After all I’ve said, all it boils down to is that I wanna just have everything handed to me on a silver platter.

Maybe I should use this spare time to work on my character, huh? It would definitely shock the crew if I became a better person…or at least, if I managed to become so much better that it’d almost be disturbing.

Just thinking about it makes me want to laugh. Man…they would definitely be confused in some way or another.

I sigh. But, no, really - what if I figured it all out and then became a worse person? If it got so bad that they didn’t want me anywhere near them? Then what?

Would I just live out here? Enter the barrier for a quiet, assured shelter…leave the barrier to hunt for food…go back in. Explore whatever I haven’t looked at yet. Take the time to bury the bodies…if I came back nice enough.

It sounds…pretty boring. And lonely. But it would definitely satisfy most of my needs…for a while, at least. I’m sure it’d be pretty easy, too…

…I wish Birch had been a lot more direct about my past…thinking back, I probably should’ve questioned him until he got pissed. More missed opportunities…

…I still feel weird thinking about him. Empty, I guess…that would be accurate.

As the town comes into view, I stretch and yawn. This cold air is almost a bit of a blessing - I always feel a little less woozy after I take a few deep breaths. Although…the smell, not so much.