why this? why us!? (i gave up)

Birthday special...

Before you will start reading this here are some tw..! (truama, mentioning of rape..,abuse,bullying,touching, also fighting!) if you don't feel comfortable with any of those please do not read this part! :(

this was your warning I must say.. If you didn't listen to it idk what to say.. I am so sorry if you just read through this whole book without reading cautions..

book written january 31-february 4th (my b-day)

I just wanna say happy late february beginning? (not a national holiday ik and irdc I just love my birthday month expect valentine's day.) so yeah I will at least make a new part every day if I do remember so do NOT bully me or hate on this page cause I do but my whole life/brain/iq/braincells/bad at english and ela/ into this sooo yeah..! thank you!!

yes this is long I will start with poland and then later on just keep changing idk...Ill do as much as I can but then ill give up and when I give up I will do (:3) to let yall know its the next day..anyways lets continue? yes or no.. ill take that as a no!

also the chapter is called "Understanding each other..." cause I said so!! *wink wink wink*
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January 31st part..
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*poland pov*

"hey germany I brought breakfast for you".. He was still asleep? But it looks to obvious he's not. It's like he hates me or something what did I even do.(It looks like he has trust issues girlie..!) I give it my all. and all I get is just an ignore or fake sleeping. So I just put the food on the night stand.. atp I don't even know anymore slovakia is out of town for real this time I saw her left while making pancakes.. I should've known to never date him.. He would just do an excuse to keep me or something. Yk I need a break from seeing a room with him! Ugh. I just stormed into the living room trying not to cry at all. If he acts like everything is alright. We're going to see who will stop yelling first. Cause I feel fucking betrayed over what? FOR NOTHING. he's a bitch a this point! I really loved him and I do opened up to him! I start trusting men a little but more cause of him! But all I get is nothing but quiet. this apartment is so quiet. Can't believe I put my LOVE in him and trusted him. I love him...he loved me..?? Idek anymore..

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im crying.. I couldn't handle it no more.. I did everything for him,.. (girl we get it..) he could just tell me something but he just wanna keep quiet. if I see him im gonna yell at him im so done. I thought we could have a future! But no. He just wanna ghost me and act like I don't see him everyday. Like i needed him.I kept on crying so hard idek what to do.. I just gonna keep crying here till I fall asleep..
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*germany pov.*

She left..I feel so bad..She looked hurt so bad she also made me food..Not my favorite but it's something I mean it's second place my favorite food has to be sausages! I know..I follow the stereotype but don't complain till you taste it.. I mean.. yeah I just started to eat the breakfast I feel like if I try to apologize to her she's gonna yell at me for trying to do so! Oh im such a bad person (ehhh..what do yall think hm..?) What do I do??? What do I even try.. If I talk to her im gonna get yelled at for days..I don't wanna break up! I love her so much..It's just my trusting issues are so bad.. I love her but idk if I can trust her.. I mean she didnt trust me for a week..but I gained it now its like im doing the same to her but when were in a relationship!? I'm such an asshole like those reddit stories...I wanna apologize with anything! Maybe not blood..ew..disgusting.. yucky..and everything.. I am also in her room I should just like stay here a little and wait till she comes into this room and maybe talk to me..? I'll tell her everything especially the bullying I had.. and my insecure about my legs.. that just made me hate it since that.. But I also don't know a lot of her..I mean she could've went through stuff worse than mine..