Loner (König x neutral reader)

14 - Pain

I think I never got shaken so much. Königs hands were wrapped firmly around my shoulders.

"Y/N look at me!" He grabbed my face with his hands to make me look at him. My gaze shifts from my brothers dead body towards his eyes. I could see how confused and worried he was.

"What's going on?" He asked, his voice softer than before.

I just stare at him. I just couldn't speak right now. My brain wouldn't allow me to believe that I just killed my brother who I assumed was dead. The frustration was visible in Königs eyes as I still didn't speak. He pulled me up to my feet.

"C'mon we need to get out of here." He pulled me out of the room and I followed. I didn't really care. I was too focused on trying to understand what I just did.

The ride back to base was quiet. Too quiet. I didn't even notice how König kept glancing at me worried. I was too much in my own head. I kept seeing Ian's face. The painful expression on it. I just found out he was still alive and now I killed him with my own hands. Just because I wanted to protect König. I furrow my eyebrows as I felt rage take over me. 

Because König walked in. It's all his fault. If he would've just stayed away I could've maybe figured things out with Ian. I maybe could've had my old life back. But it's all gone now. Forever. Just because of him.

We arrive at base and I quickly got out of the car, König following me close behind. I tried to keep my anger in check but it got more and more difficult. We arrive in front of my room and I swirl around. "Can you just leave me alone?" I told König in a clearly pissed off tone as I glare up at him. He seemed a bit taken aback by my sudden change of emotions.

"I'm not gonna leave you alone. What's wrong?" He furrowed his eyebrows and I close my eyes. 

I swear to god if he doesn't leave this moment I'm gonna beat him up.

"Just leave. I don't want to see you." I glare up at him and he shook his head confused.

"I'm not gonna leave. What is going on with you?" He sounded more pissed off as well now and I groan frustrated. "You act strange since we were in that building. What happened?"

"My god König! Can't you hear what I'm saying? Fuck. Off." I point at the door as I stare at him intensely. 

"What did I do?!" He opened his arms in a helpless manner.

"Just leave me the fuck alone!" I yell at him, pushing him away. He stares at me. Then he just turned around and left without another word.

I breath heavily, my hand brushing through my hair while gripping it tightly. I rip open the door and smash it close behind me.

Don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry...

I close my eyes as I lean my head against the wooden door. I inhale a deep breath, letting it out shakingly. My throat tightens. A tear falls from my eye and that just made me break down completely. I slight down against the door, wrapping my hands around my head as I began to cry. My body was shaking and I tried to control my sobs but they kept slipping out of my mouth. I pull my knees close to my body, making myself as small as possible and bury my face in my knees.

König's POV

I had no idea what was going on with them. I sat on the edge of my bed, fidgeting with my hands while thinking of how they yelled at me a few moments ago. I think back to how they stared at the body of one of the enemies. 

Did I do something wrong?

I scratch the back of my neck beneath my mask.