The sparkle in his eyes

chapter 4

Akutagawa pov

That idiot.

Of course he had to forget his phone at my apartment and make me even more work. He probably didn't even noticed he forgot it and now I have to bring it to him.

"I'm going to the store on my way to the Agency. Do you need anything? " I shout at my sister as I put on my coat.

The apartment is dead silent and I start to realize, it's probably because shes on a mission and she's coming back in three weeks. I'm not used to being so long without her. She's the only person that stayed by my side for all those years.

A cold February wind blows in my face as soon as I step outside of the apartment building. The street looks peaceful but so it did yesterday evening. I shouldn't let my guard down. I'm in no position to fight today. I still have some sore wounds.

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'Why am I even doing this?' I ask myself as I enter building where agency is located. Once I walk all the way up to the top floor, I hesitate before knocking on the door. It feels wrong for me to be here. Maybe I should just leave the phone somewhere here and go home.

I place it on a small table besides the door. I'm sure they will find it there. I turn around but before I can make the first step, the door behind me opens. I stare at the yellow haired boy and he stares at me.

"Do you need something?" he asks me with a bright smile on his face. How is he not scared of me? Does he not know who I am?

"I brought Jink.. Atsushi his phone." a shiver runs down my spine from how I called him.

"He left a few minutes ago... If you hurry you might catch up on him." I give him the phone and before he can say anything else I'm outside again. Theres no way I'm chasing after him, but I'm glad it wasn't Dazai who opened the door.

On top of that, it starts raining as soon as I step outside onto the street. Damn it, I don't have an umbrella with me. What else can go wrong today.

When I think about it on my way home I realize that I called Jinko by his real name for the first time. And probably the last time as well.

I stop at the grocery shop to buy some milk and eggs. I might try to cook something today. I didn't had pancakes for a while. Last time when Gin did it last year.

As I pass by the isle with cereal, I notice something. I take a step back to make sure I saw that right. And I did. His silver hair can't be unnoticed. Hes trying to grab something on the top shelf but he can't reach it. How pathetic. I should leave before he notices me.

"Akutagawa, is that you?"

Oh fuck.

"I don't know how to say this but I think I might need help." He says in a low voice as if hes embarrassed. Should I just run away? Instead I go closer to him, as if my body is acting on its own. "What do you want?!"

He flinges. It's sure that either of us likes this situation.

"Well...Kyouka really likes that cereal on top but... well they're way too high. So I thought that you could... maybe reach it with rashomon." I let out a sigh but help him anyway. I promised to my sister I'll try to get along with people more. She always says she's worried about me for some reason, but I don't think there is something wrong with me.

"Thank you so much Akutagawa. In the past two days I'm starting realize you might not be such a bad person as I have always thought." he smiles with his eyes closed.

Suddenly, I feel a weird feeling spreading through my whole body. I have no idea what to say, so I just walk away in silence.

As soon as I come back home, I lie on the cough. What is this feeling? He just told me that I'm not such a bad person. It's not a big deal. Is it?