Betray

IV.

For the past Four Weeks  I Have Kept My distance From Marcus I Even Decided To Take up A Job As A Part Time Art Teacher At The Lola Rec Center The class was For elders . When I Broke The News to Jussie Of Course He Wanted To Put Up A Fight About Things Which Led To Us not Being On Speaking Terms.

Every Since That I Night me and Marcus Been Intimate I felt as if he was watching me somehow at night just Looking at Jay and Jussie breaks My Heart Because I have Slept with Marcus.

Passing my Time Away At The Rec Community Service Was A Good idea And a Great Way To Escape And Exhale From My Inner Guilty Gut Feeling. The more I see Jay in the position she is killing me inside. Doctors Say There Is A Possibility That She May Not Make It Out Of This Situation Which Has Us All Worried To Death. Things started to Get Rougher and rougher Marcus Almost Lost His Job Untill Jussie Talked To His Employer and explained Everything and their condo almost gotten lost Until Jussie Saved The Day Again Breaking Our Savings, most of The Time I Get Tired Of Taking Care Of A Grown adult Who Just Flat Out Gave up On Life but at the same time who was I to judge or say anything I wasn't in his position or was I ?

" what Has been wrong with you here lately ?" Jussie said coming into the living room putting down his work bag taking off his glasses .

"Nothing .." I said taking a sip of my wine and sitting it down.

"Are you sure ?"

"Yeah I'm sure " I said lighting my cigarette and taking a long drag out of it.

" Mia You're Smoking And Drinking Like A Fish .. Yes something is wrong .."

"Look it's just Jay alright !"

"I know baby it hurts me too but we Gotta be strong For her " he said holding me as I bursted in tears.

I was not only crying for my friend I was also crying for my guilt and what pain it could put my husband and best-friend through. It was all because I wanted satisfaction And Yearning For Something I Knew That Was No Good For Me. Jussie knew I just needed alone time so her carried Me To Our bed And Slipped me into my gown and planted a kiss on my forehead.

"Now I'm leaving again babe for some over time " no this negro did not just pull that card after what all just happened this is the moment I need him he couldn't possibly want to put in over time for just because all this over time and I'm not seeing not one red penny in our bank account statement... something was up..

" oh my god jus really ! "

" Mia baby we are behind in our mortgage and the fact we have to help out Marcus too please baby fight with me later ." With that said he grabbed his brief case and glasses and headed out.

Once again I was alone and there was no sign of Marcus any where this late which is strange usually he would be just getting in from work around this time. Sleep wasn't just for me tonight maybe I could go clean and straighten up my house up some , just as I was getting up I noticed a pile of papers on jussies night stand on his side of the bed he knew how I was about junk around the house. Of course it was his credit card statements just out of curiosity I started to look through his bank deposits and transactions , not only was he paying two mortgages but it several hotel room transactions and motel 8's transactions as well . I can't even get mad on this one but then again how long have this been going on was back in college or when I was starting to have baby fever ?  No wonder why we are so behind on our bills no wonder why our accounts is drifting.....

I dropped to my knees in tears with the papers still in my hand He has hotel transactions all the way from six months ago , maybe I should just keep this to my self and catch him in act one of these good ole days .

Hours have passed since I found out jussie's little secret and I still had that on my mind heavy , here it was 3:45 in the morning I just knew he wasn't coming home at all before I thought of anything else Marcus comes walking in my door way .

" lemme guess he not coming home ?" He asked

" no he was here then he left he said he had to do over time Marcus can I ask you something ?"

"What's that?"

"Is Jussie cheating on me be honest ?"

"Now that I don't know shawty but I feel like you need some lovin good kinda lovin "

" Marcus we can't do that anymore"

He jumped on my bed and sat by me .

" shawty let your body be mines for tonight " he said kissing all over me .

"Marcus stop ! " I said pushing him off me .

"Please we both need this " he said whining .

"Look what about Jay ?"

" look I may have love for her but I'm in love with you "

" Marcus no -no you know this ain't right please get out "

"Ight ma" he says getting up giving me a deadly stare.

Forty-five minutes passed and I was on my fourth cigarette and second glass of wine Jussie still hasn't made it home , overtime my ass he was out creeping he's been doing that for some time now . I just found myself getting up and and tiptoeing to the guest room.

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"Marcus?"

"Mmmm" he replied from his sleep and he shifted to where he could face me as I laid on his chest.

"Why do we keep doing this?like I told you before we can't keeping doing this."

"Mia Mia yo you can stop it you want it as bad as I do so why you even tripping."

"Look Marcus this ain't right I'm married and look you are married too."

"We can't keep doing this-!" He cut me off as I was ranting about the situation he cut me off by placing his lips on mines and he kissed my tears as they streamed down my face.

This felt so wrong by all means usually this is something you read on books or watch on tv but this right here was the most outraged ideal I have ever came up with . The last I remembered of the night was him on top slowly going in and out something I never experienced jussie and sadly I was thinking did jay appreciate his love making and his charm?