i agree with my husband [ jake x johnnie ]

ch.10

questioning everything about his lovelife?! what does that even mean? also it includes me?? maybe not. last time when i thought something was between us i got hurt... this morning actually. when we get home i immediately go to my room. i kinda forgot that it is new year... 2024 now. so much happened i just didn't really care. i take my phone out of my pocket and i call my mom and my siblings wishing them a happy new year. they are telling me to go visit them sometime and i tell them that i will. maybe i could bring jake with me, they haven't met yet anyways.

after like half an hour i go out to the kitchen hoping that just will be there but he is not. so i go to his room and knock on the door.

"come in" he yells, so that's what i do. he is lying on the bed and his eyes are red. "i was sleeping" he says.

"sorry, i'll leave then."

"wanna join?" he asks. my heart starts pounding in my chest and i want to say yes immediatly but then i remember seeing him with tara this morning.

"no i'm good" i say and he seems a little sad about my answer. "i'm gonna order some food from mcdonald's, you want something?"

"no thanks" he says and turnes around in his bed, so i can only see his back now. i leave the room. i know he said he doesn't want any food but i still order him some. i feel like jake is almost more sad and confused about this morning than myself, which is kinda weird. i mean he kissed tara.

the food arrives and i go into jake's room one last time to ask him if he is sure about not wanting to eat with me. he is still facing the wall and i think i hear him sobbing a little.

"jakey" i say but he doesn't turn to face me. "you sure you don't want to eat with me?" i ask.

"leave me alone johnnie" he says. his voice is so sad, it really breaks my heart into pieces.

"i'm only gonna ask this one time, okay? do you really want me to leave, or should i stay with you?" i ask. i know jake. i know that when he is sad or axious he likes to be comforted.

"i... i think you can stay. i just don't wanna talk" he says.

"we don't have to" i assure him. i walk towards the bed and sit on it. "what do you want me to do?" i ask.

"can you... hug me maybe?" he asks and i lie down next to him, opening my arms so he can cuddle me. usually i'm the one cuddling jake, but now his head is on my chest and he is sobbing. i don't even know what to think anymore because i feel so many things. but right now it's not about me. it's about my best friend, jake, who is not feeling well and my duty is to keep him safe and loved.
i hug him tight and try to ignore the fact that his hair is all over my face because i don't want to ruin this moment for us.
after minutes the sobbing is still there, jake is crying harder that before. i don't really know what to do, but i want to do everything i can.

"jakey, look at me" i say and he lifts his head up from my chest to look me in the eyes. his face is dripping wet from his tears. i reach to his face and wipe down his tears with my thumb. his face is so close to mine that i can feel his breathing on my lips. my thumb is still on his face while he leans closer and kisses my lips.

this is our first sober kiss.

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hiii!!
early update!!!
i wanted to post this chapter tomorrow BUT
my bestie Snickkersy is writing a story called That Band! and i wanted you guys to check it out bc i think it's really cool and cutsy :3
have a nice day yall <3

8/2/2024