radio interference.

reminisce.

i feel so alone and looking back i only have myself to blame, letting those men control me. 

i lost everyone but them, a form of control. 

a deterent to leave, because you have no one left. 

if i could go back and change it all i would. 

i've never felt so alone, even though i'm still surrounded by a few amazing people, i can't help but feel this way. 

i just feel i've fucked my life up beyond repair. 

looking back, wishing it could all be different, and knowing i can't go back. 

show them who i really was without being under someone's control, maybe things would be different.

but the only thing i can do is reminisce.