I immediately understood i was in love with him, I mean, while watching Call me by your name the only thing i was able to think about was how bad i wanted to be that guy Oliver.
The concert i had to do that night didn't go very well, i was really tired, obviously.
But that night I had the best idea ever.
I posted about him.
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He didn't even like my post.
But he saw it.
I'm sure he saw it, because that night he texted me.
"Dude i'm glad you liked my SNL skit! Just wanted to make sure that you didn't got offended by it, i really think you're a great artist, believe me"
I was literally freaking out, Timothée Chalamet had called me a great artist?
I didn't know what to answer.
"thanks! don't worry, i don't get offended easily, i mean i've been bullied my whole life so..."
No, why do i always act like a victim.
Delete.
"awww thanks dude! dw, i hope you had fun! and i hope that my dance wasn't too stupid for you, since you're so gifted and talented"
Send.
He answered immediately.
"Ahahh nooo i love your dance! I gotta go i'm currently on the set of Dune, wish you the best for your new album"
That Dune movie sucked in my opinion, maybe I just had high expectations because of Call me by your name, but i didn't like at all the dynamic between him and that gorgeous girl, Zendaya.
He used to always hang out with gorgeous girls, the ones that everyone talked about on social media and on shit like that.
He always had the hottest girls around him, the sexy model Kylie Jenner, the actress Lily-Rose Deep, who was hot enough to be the main character of a show like The Idol, and also Selena Gomez, Saoirse Ronan, Elle Fanning, he basically knew everybody.
He was even popular among guys, you can't tell me that Armie Hammer didn't enjoy shooting Call Me by your Name and that Luca Guadagnino didn't see him as his biggest inspiration for half of his movies.
I just wanted to say to him "text me, call me, reach for me everytime you feel lonely, i'll be like one of your girls or your homies", but i was a no one compared to him.
Then i realized.
I had left him on seen.
I had to make him understand how bad i craved his attention, I had to text him again,even if i didn't expect an answer.
"oohhh i loved Dune 1! you were really good in it and zendaya delivered a great performance too! i've never been on the set of a blockbuster movie like Dune, it must be so cool!"
