If you're searching for optimism, you won't find it here.

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Lately, I've been contemplating it, but as I put my thoughts into words, I find myself at a loss.

It's as if my mind is now a blank slate, unsure of how to start or even articulate the expression.

It's always been like this.

Finding the right words is consistently challenging.

It's always hard to find a word and the next.

It's hard to convey that feeling.

How ironic that again, I'm at the beginning trying, but eventually I just gave up after a few meaningless sentences that lacked truth.

The flow of words just stops. I keep searching that maybe I will find that right word in my head, but it never emerges.

Perhaps leaving words unspoken is a better choice?