My feelings on a everyday basis

𝒯𝒽ℯ ℛℴ𝓁𝓁ℯ𝓇𝒸ℴ𝒶𝓈𝓉ℯ𝓇 ℴ𝒻 ℒℴ𝓋ℯ

Waiting patiently in line for my turn
Wondering if this is a good decision or not. Watching the people before me go and seeing the looks of horror, amusement, and excitement etched on their faces.
Should I really do this? It's never too late to back out? But how bad can it be?
I slowly walk up with all the fear in my chest, palms sweating and all. I latch myself down securely checking the seatbelt making sure it's holding me tight. As I wait for the ride to start I wonder what if I just get up now ? I still got time.
The attendant lets us know the ride is about to begin. Letting us know all the rules of what not to do. As I slowly tune out the talking I don't even realize the jerking motion of us is slowly starting our way up. All the emotions all the thoughts rushing through my head as I see the top of all the buildings and all the people turn into tiny little trees. I think about how this ride is taking me on so many other rides in one. Just like you. One minute we're up and down and twirling around and then the next minute the ride is slowing back up getting ready to go over another hill. Half way through the ride I'm wondering if I'm really enjoying it or if I'm scared out of my mind. All the joy excitement fear sadness all of it rushing and as I speed around and around and around. Then suddenly it's over the ride is done. Now it's my choice to either keep riding the ride or get off of this rollercoaster of love

~𝒥𝒞ℳ~