My feelings on a everyday basis

"Trip"

Dark dreams
Twisted clouds
Just a couple more pills until.....
Until I stop feeling
This pain that has built up for so long
Time to get ready for the lift off
Ready to take this trip to another world
A world I like to call my happy place
The world where we all are happy and high
The world where my broken heart will mend
Where my racing mind will finally calm
A place where I can really call home
A place I'm not ashamed to come from
A place I was made to live in
A place to where I can be free
And then it's gone
The feelings come back
My mind starts racing
My heart is still broken
I'm sad again
I'm not home
I'm no longer high
I'm sad and sober
This is no longer my paradise
-JCM