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Elo

Here I am once again, stuck in the bathroom suffering. This was my fourth time throwing up today, why does my stomach have to be so weak? Why...do I keep having these nightmares?

Why...why..........why.....why...w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠w̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖̠vvw̴̢̢̩̲̮̖̜̱̳̑̋ͅh̵̰͇̱̉̐̔͐ỳ̸̲̳̟̠͈͖.


I can't keep calm. I can't control my own body. I feel so sick. I feel so weak. Maybe it's because I didn't eat. No, it can't be. I don't eat. I can't eat.

I flush the puke filled toilet and look at the mirror. I look so dead. I'm surprised I haven't died yet. I stare at the mirror and notice myself changing.

Its happening again.

Ẅ̸̥́͒͝h̴͖̃̔̎̿̆̓̓̑̇͘y̶̡̛̱̫̯̮̟̗͙̪̺͛͐̽ ̵̘͙̙̺̥͖̫̘̓̄̒̎̈́͑̂d̶̨̡̤̟̬͓̠͔͇͈̀͆͌ô̴̤̥̯͖̗͍͐͐͆̓́̆͠͝è̸̖͚͊̏̈́̌ş̵̟̭͖̠͕͖̀͋̍͜͝ ̷̭̹̹̙̲͗́̍̏͘í̸̢̨͙̺̥͈̼͉̼̄͐̃̊̿̕t̶͚͖͉̗̣̫̓̓̇̐̾͑̕ ̴̗̘͆̎̈̈͗͆̔̀̓k̷͙̤̱̈̒̇͝͝ȩ̵̻̫̘̜̗̤̋̾̏͜͜ę̸͕̪̣͖̗̙͎̝̀̓̊͑̏̈́̃̈́̎ͅp̵̜͕͛ͅ ̵̡̢̡͓̯͇̞̝͖͋͑̐͐̔́̅ḩ̴͚̩̼̱͎̬̟͌̓̀̔̏ͅa̸̦̦̎̄́̿̕p̴̝͈̮̄̓͋͊̀́̒͊̕͝p̶̘̗͍̻̖̞̼̫͋ę̸̉n̴̨͈̠̙̺̘̺̈́̏̕͜͠i̸̳̍̃̿̃͛̚͝n̷̡̳͚͎̱̬͒̑͆̆͘͠͝g̷̦͎͍̫̝̫͈̙̠͋̏̐́̈́̂̉̽̚͘?̸̡̰͚͓̜̦̝̘̓̇̋ͅ


My reflection is changing by itself. Is this even real? Am I hallucinating? This isn't normal.

Whats wrong with me?

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