-nightmare on epex street-

chapter 12: normal

flashback

"I-I I keep seeing this man and he won't go away! He hurt me. And he killed others. I don't know who he is, and I can't stand seeing his horrid face but he won't go away!"

"This day is fucked."

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Mu pov

It had been nearly a whole month since the incident. I, along with Jeff, and Baekseung, hadn't had any nightmares, at least not the ones that were horrible. Though we'd only met two months ago, I felt I could trust them. But now, there doesn't seem to be anything worth worrying about. I mean, the terrors have stopped! But still, something is wrong.. I haven't got a clue, and it driving me insane! Since we had that talk, and realisation, we've all got the creeps. But now? Everything has suddenly just stopped.

After a long, disheartening talk, Mr. Seo instructed me to keep a journal. He said it could help, and I guess it can't do any harm, right? Turns out it was helpful. Really helpful. Just writing out my thoughts was very stress-relieving. I continued to hang around Jeff and Baekseung, and I brought up the eerie feeling I've had. Baekseung claimed he felt normal, while Jeff explained that he'd also felt... wrong. It was impossible for us to describe it, but we had both been overwhelmed with the feeling of pure wrongness. I talked it over with Yewang, explaining how I was scared to sleep. Always in fear of more terrors in my dreams, and he let me stay in his room. I was so greatful, just having someone next to me in bed was so much better than being alone. In the dark. With nothing but my thoughts to put me to sleep. Every night he reassured me that everything was okay. That, as long as he was there, nothing would get me. And nothing really did anymore.

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9:26 a.m.

-It's been four months since my nightmares came back, and three months since they stopped. I don't understand why, and whenever I bring it up, it just upsets Yewang. I don't want to upset him... I like him... I'm afraid if I continue to talk about it, he won't let me sleep next to him anymore! The nightmares stopped when we started sharing a room, an-

I stopped writing, and I slammed my journal shut. "Oh my gosh." If I sleep alone, they'll come back, yeah? Yeah...
I pondered the idea for longer than I'll admit. Do I really want them back? No... I stood up off my bed. Maybe I could... find out something.. I mean, they're all just dreams, right? I stood there by my bed, silent. Continuously playing my old dreams in my head. I know for a fact that Jeff, along with Baekseung also stopped having nightmares as they also found sleeping buddies.. What if the three of us shared a room? What's the worst that could happen, I piss the bed  .... again? Actually, there isn't really anything worse that I could think of.. hmmm If they're willing, we might have them back. Maybe if we shared a room we would share our dreams too.

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11:49 a.m.

"No way, that wouldn't work!" Jeff said. Since I realised that we all stopped after we started sharing rooms with other people, I knew I had to bring up my idea to Jeff and Baekseung. So, an hour ago, I called them over. "It might!" Neither of them liked it one bit, but I was determined to at least try. I mean, how bad could it be? "Mu, he's right. I mean..... It was probably all just a coincidence.." Baekseung chimed in finally "I mean... do we really want to go through that? And for what? I mean... uh, I don't want to!" He ran out of the room. I looked over to Jeff. "Well?" He looked at me, upset. "I don't know, man.. we finally got to a point where we're.... normal. Can't we just stay that way?" "But what if there's more to it? What if it means something, and we're just ignor-" " Mu, no. I'm sorry, but no! No to all of this! I can't... I can't." Jeff walked of the room, and I started to feel guilty. I wish I didn't do that. The last thing I want is to drive my only friends away. Dammit, I forgot to tell them that me and Yewang shared a nightmare... "I'm such an idiot!" Giggle "No you're not!" I jumped up, and saw Yewang standing in the doorway. "I-I didn't see you there."  He walked into the room, and said "Really? Maybe you are an idiot." I felt offended, and I threw a pillow at his face. "Hey!! Hmhm" I thought he would fight back or get upset, but he laid down next to me. "So.. what's on your mind, dumb dumb?" While laying down, he extended his hand, and I grabbed it not expecting him to pull me down. "Mmph!" I landed on top of  him. Instead of getting up, I stayed there. It felt weirdly comforting. Everything felt at peace. even though I could get up, I didn't want to move. "Did you sleep last night? I heard a lot of ruckus coming from your room." I looked into his eyes, then back down. "I couldn't sleep..... at all... I'm sorry" I could feel him stroking my back, and I  started feeling more and more drowsy. This feels so warm..