Finally, Home.

Sneha PoV

It's been almost 6 months since the Jungkook became my friend. It's bizarre but I am so glad we crossed paths. He is like my happy place, because of him I don't feel alone. I can ping him up whenever or just go to his place. More importantly, He taught me how to live, I don't know how to say this. But I have learnt so much from him, and because of him, I feel at peace with myself. Maybe I have become more comfortable with myself. I am just grateful. Agh, I feel my emotions are everywhere today, probably because of my period. It's just I am too emotional and anxious.
Also, this movie - Me before you. It doesn't matter how many times I have watched it, every time the ending makes me cry. I felt like watching it, but it just made it worse. I am a now crying mess, like why would choose to die? I question his decision every time and understand it better at the same time. The fuck is wrong with me? I need to get a grip.

*Bell Rings*
Ugh, Who is it? I don't want to see anyone. I wipe my tears and open the door.
And I see Jungkook smiling, "Hey...." And his smile fades, "Why are you crying?"
I smile while crying, "I was watching Me Before You, and I cried. Now, I cannot control my tears."
He looks at me concerned, "Don't cry." and He wipes the tears of my face, He bends a little and hugs me, it makes me cry even more. His hand on my back, slow tenderness to soothe me.
'How did he learn this?' is all I can think now. This gentleness, I have never experienced it. (Daily Haiku)

I break the hug before it becomes awkward, "I am okay, yeah okay now."
He smiles, "You sure? You don't need my arms around you anymore?"
I laugh, "Nope, you flirt. Come on in."
He says, "What a shame."
I turn back to look at him, smiling so naively.
I don't know, how to say this, but He smells good. I like his smell. It's something musky vanilla, but why am I smelling him? This is not right!
As we sit next to each other.
He asks, "You had dinner?"
Oh, "No, I didn't."
He says, "Then let's make something?"
"No I don't want to. I don't wanna do anything." I cry.
He says, "Then Let's order?"
" No I am too tired too."
He looks at me confused and asks, "You want some coffee?"
This guy, he sure knows a way to my heart.
I look at him, almost melting, "Yes, Please. I never say no to a cup of coffee."
He laughs, "That's right, How can I forget your first love."
I laugh, "It's my Only love, correction."
"That's because you want it to be your only love."
I think he sees right through my facade sometimes.
I look at him and shrug, "No, That's because I cannot find someone to love."
He doesn't say anything for a while and then says, "If you look around, I am sure you will find someone to love."
I....I don't know what to say.
"Maybe."
And then he gets up and goes to the kitchen while I turn to face him. I think I never told him, that I am grateful for him. So, I say, "You know, don't make a weird face okay? But Thank you."
He stops working and looks at me with a confused face, not saying anything.
I laugh, "I knew you would react like that. I just want to say Thank you. Like for checking up on me, taking care of me & like just being there. Most importantly, teaching me how to live basically, it is the small things that you do. I like it here, with you around. You are the reason I don't feel lonely here."
He looks me in the eyes, probably contemplating what to answer. He smiles, "You might not realise this, but with you, I feel the same. I know I have a lot of people here, but with you, it's different somehow. It's always me, just Jungkook."
I smile and I say something that's been on my mind.
"Oh. I don't know," I said. "You know, I used to feel, with every year gone by, I was drifting farther away from who I thought I'd be. Now, it's just different."
"Well, that's the thing," he replied.
He added, "When you're lost at sea- with only empty sky above and wave after wave below — sometimes, the only way to find yourself again— is to look up, take the hand reaching out for yours...and let them pull you back to shore." (Laura Clift)
I smiled, "That would be you, for me I guess."
He smiled a little, and said, "I think it was you. You decided to come here, You took the first step."
I smiled a little remembering the life I left behind, "Yeah, I guess."
I shrugged, "Anyways, Is my coffee ready?"
He looked soft somehow, "It will be in 2 minutes."
And I just adored him, while he was making me a cup of coffee. I thought, I don't know what would I do without you. I would have drowned if it wasn't for him. But I cannot say that to him, He practically saved my life. I was standing on the cliff, and coming here was my attempt to give life another chance. Nevertheless, I fell in the sea, and then he saved me.

Suddenly he comes in my line of sight and smiles brightly like the sun.
He says, "Here's your coffee."
I smile, "Thank you."
He blushes a little, "My Pleasure."
I think gentleness is one of the most disarmingly and captivatingly attractive qualities there are. (Nayyirah Waheed)

We begin talking about our day, and the food he ordered arrives.
"When did you order?" I ask curiously.
He smiles, "While you were having your coffee Shouldn't you ask what it is!?"
I laugh, "It was my next question."
He smiles, "Guess?"
I name almost all his favourites and Korean dishes.
He sighs, "It's Indian Food."
I say, "Oh, My favourite."
It warms my heart. He is just....precious.